today was billie last show in california, and i couldn't be more afraid.
i would have to be with her 24/7 no escape. usually if we had a fight or argued i'd be able to go home but we will be in different countries and states meaning i no longer have that escape. i mean i could always get my own hotel room but would billie allow that?
"I'm so excited for tonight but kinda said it's my last show here." billie pouted as she rambled about how tour was going for her so far.
we were both laying in her green room as we waited for all her fans to arrive at the venue.
"alright billie breaks over you have to do your vocal warm ups before you get on stage." maggie said as she entered the room.
"mom what did i say about knocking? what if me and eavzn were fucking?" billie said annoyingly as she got up from my touch. i covered my face in embarrassment at that fact she said that to her mother.
"well billie you shouldn't be doing that in here." she said laughing as she kissed billies head as billie left the room to go to warm ups with finneas.
she loves her daughter so much.
"are you coming backstage tonight eavzn?" maggie asked me.
"i was thinking of going in pit with some of billies fans and interact with them more." i said.
billie didn't want me to go in pit with her fans at first but i begged and begged and she finally let me do so.
"oh! alright love be careful." maggie said lastly also kissing my head before she left the room.
as maggie left i waited a few minutes so billie would come in and leave to get on stage so i can get ready and get into pit.
billie quickly came in and gave me a peck on the lips before walking out and there i was changing and out the door like a flash.
(eavzns outfit is what maddy from euphoria wore on new years; picture at the top!)
i ran to the main part of the venue making sure to be in the back of the pit making sure most of billies fans wouldn't be able to really see me.
but as soon as i got there some fans noticed me and asked me to take pictures.
"can you take a picture with me of you holding my waist and like kiss my cheek?" one of her fans asked.
billie has done poses like this with other fans so i guess they thought it was a good idea to ask me to do so as well.. i didn't wanna be mean so i did what i was asked.
"of course." i said in the nicest way possible not wanting to be called billies rude girlfriend throughout her fandom.
as we were taking the picture the girl quickly turned her head making her lips touch mine. everyone around us gasped as some of them were recording the interaction.
i quickly moved my head away from hers and my heart dropped thinking how those videos or pictures will be spread and billie will mostly see it.
