As my chest constricted
In on itself
I found myself
Unable to moveI could no longer
Leave my homeBecause even descending
My own front steps
Leaves me wishing
The pain
Would stopI am trapped
In my birdcage
Left to only
Look down upon
The small world
Below my windowsThe yard
And driveway
And the house
And the woods
Are all that exist
In the world
Outside my cageOn the rarest
Of occasion
I go beyond
And even then
It is just to
Doctors and hospitalsOffices with floors
Polished clean
And tables wiped
Sanitary and niceAll the doctors
Tell me to see
A specialist
For my issues
And all of the
So called specialists
Say the same thing
And send me away
To a different oneI just want to be
Left alone
In my birdcage
To sing my song
In solitude
And to flit about
From wall to wall
Dreaming of days
I flew freeSo leave me
Get tired of me
And walk away
Stop looking
At the pretty
Pathetic little birdyAll I ask
Is that you
Remember
To give me food
And waterAnd maybe
On the off chances
You think of me
Come look at me
Talk to me
Give me but
A speck
Of your attention
To remind me
I am realEither that
Or please
Put me outNot outside
But out of my misery
For this simply
Pathetic
Painful and
Downright
Hopeless
Life I find myself
Trapped in
Is numbing meI am less sad
I am less happy
Less less less alive
And more void
Of it all
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poetry
PoetryI may seem like an insufferable nerd-tastic idiot, but I'm actually pretty poetic