More than Friends

5

"Wasn't your just telling me how you're in love with August, why in the hell would you let him walk out"

That's a good question, why would I let August walk out? This man confessed his love for me and not only did I let him walk out but I fucked another man right after and I'm sure he knows that

"I didn't know what to say" I feel the same way, yes. I just don't know if I'm willingly to cross that bridge. "I didn't want to make it weird. I tell him I love him back, then what?"

I don't know if I can be in a romantic relationship with him. I know how I feel but I don't see us kissing or anything more than that.

"Y'all fuck!" Typical answer from Tae.

"I don't know how" I can't stop thinking about how my friendship would be over if the relationship doesn't work out. I can't lose August

"You lay back and open your legs. It's really simple" I rolled my eyes

"I'm saying, how can I look at him like that? Don't get me wrong August is fine as fuck but I don't see him like that" I don't think I do

"Why are you even thinking about sex anyway? That would be moving hella fast if you ask me" I'm just thinking about everything

"Because, what's after that? August I'm in love with you, then what? Do we continue our friendship, date, or just avoid each other" I can admit I'm scared

"Maybe talk to August about it. Everybody been telling y'all to get together so obviously y'all don't listen to us, so, why start now"

Talk to August? Sounds so easy right? It's not though.

Well maybe it is. Maybe I'm overreacting. "I'm going to talk to him. I'm about to text him"

I don't know what to say though, should I bring up Ace? No. That's childish

: can we talk

"Why you look so nervous like he'll do anything to hurt you"

I did hurt him, what if he wanted to even the score? I do love August. The love I have for him is unexplainable. At that time when he confessed his feelings, yeah, I did feel the same way but I was scared and caught off guard.

"Tae I just don't know" I don't know what to do. Everybody is saying what they'll do but it's not that simple.

He could have feelings for me and not want to be with me. Then it'll be back to him parading bitches in my face. Then where would that leave us?

Maybe I'm overthinking? I need to just calm down and go with the flow.

What if I don't like the flow though?

My choose of Niggas is usually bad, hence me being single, what if I'm not completely over the past and I mess something so beautiful up? What if August isn't ready for everything I come with?

Well that part is false. He's been around this long. He knows me backwards, forwards, inside, and out.

He's the only person that knows when I'm on my period i like to sleep on the floor. I don't know why honestly but I've been doing it for years. August makes a pallet beside me.

He's the only person that knows I like egg and cheese in my noodles.

He's the only person that knows I like to warm my salads up in the microwave because anything cold is disgusting to me.

I don't want to lose him.

"Ariana get out your head"

"Damn Tae you couldn't have said that like three thoughts ago" we shared a laugh. "You right. I need to just chill out"