losing you, losing me taekook ff

chap 16.

Jungkook pov.

it's been about a 2 weeks.

taehyung is 5 weeks pregnant.

his belly isn't visible but it's there.

everything was going good.. until today...

taehyung is currently in the shower.

i wanted to surprise taehyung by taking a shower with him..

i sneakily got opened the bathroom door.. about to take off my clothes.. but I heard taehyung wince.

"taehyung are you okay" i said worriedly.

"y-yea im fine, just pregnancy problem" he awkwardly laughed.

something's up.

"im gonna take a shower with you"

"no jungkook" he said loudly.

the fuck?

"taehyung what's actually going on"

"n-nothing, I'll be out soon, wait for me"

"no taehyung" I said and opened the curtain.

and the sight broke my heart.

"TAEHYUNG WHAT THE ACTUALLY FUCK! YOU TOLD ME YOU WOULD STOP CUTTING!" I screamed.

he promised me.

flash back.

I caught taehyung cutting for the second time..

i hate when he does this.

"taehyung promise me you'll stop cutting" I said as I treated his wounds.

"y-yea I promise"

"thank you baby"

I pecked his lips and continued to treat his wound.

end of flashback.

"jungkook I-i"

"you what?" I spat.

"it's just, i had a memory of that day and i just feel so disgusting.. everytime I think about that day, I want to die.. I can't help but cut" taehyung cried.

"princess im sorry that you go through that, im here to help you.. stop doing this! it's hurting me and the baby" I cried with him.

"YOU DONT THINK ITS HURTING ME JUNGKOOK, THAT DAY IF YOU WOULD HAVE JUST STAYED BY MY SIDE, MAYBE I WOULD OF NEVER TRIED TO MAKE FRIENDS AND GET ASSAULTED"

"so your blaming this on me" i said shocked.

he just took his blade and slowly glided the razor on his left arm, blood quickly ran down his arm, falling into the water and down the drain. he hissed in pain and started to examine the new deep cut, he did all of that.. right infront of me.

i felt so weak. so useless. so hurt.

I took the blade out off his hand, accidentally cutting my fingers.

"fuck" I said as I looked at my fingers.

"jungkook your hand" he screamed worriedly.

he's worried about my hand while he has 3 new cuts on his arm.

"taehyung just please stop doing this, it hurts me so much.. I can't keep seeing you like this" I sighed.

"you wanna die, i wanna die with you" i said and was about to cut my arm.

taehyung pushed the blade away, and kissed my arm.

"don't even think about it" he said as he grabbed a towel to wrap it around his body.

"don't hide your body baby, it's beautiful"

"not anymore, it has been touched and has marks on it"

"no baby.. it's fucking beautiful" I bent down to kiss his belly.

"and so is my little bun"

2 hours later.

I treated  taehyung's wounds and my hand.

we were laying in bed, I was continuously pecking taehyung's stomach as he giggled.

lucky taehyung's pregnancy gives him mood swings, so it's easy to make him smile.. sometimes.

"both my babies are so cutee, and daddy loves both of you with his whole heart" i said and kissed taehyung lips.

"taehyung and bun loves daddy more, and taehyung promises to never cut again, and he'll talk things out with daddy" taehyung said cutely.

"I hope so baby"

we shared a long passionate kiss, and laid our foreheads against each other's.

moments like this is why I always run back to tae. he gives me energy and support to keep my heart beating, he gives me butterflies in my stomach that I can't ignore, he gives me the evidence to prove how much my heart beats for him, how my heart beats for his touch, his love, his body, and his heart.

...

"princess can you have sex while your pregnant" i asked innocently.

"mm I think so, why?"

"maybe we can have a little fun—" I suggested.

"no"

"why nottt, we haven't had sex in like 2 months, little jk is practically begging for some ass" i whined.

"little jk can go find some other ass to fuck, this taebooty is retired" he sassed.

"sooo your suggesting i fuck someone else?"

"YOU WOULDNT DARE"

"your right, taetae has the best ass in the whole universe, why would i want to fuck someone else other than him?"

"shut up jungkook" he began to walk away.

"please taehyung, i just seen you naked a few hours ago, it's driving my nuts.. nutsss" i followed.

"don't talk like that around my baby" he said and protectively wrapped his arms around his belly.

"fine. can i at least get some head?" i asked.

"go use your hand, it'll be much faster than my mouth" he said before swaying his hand in my face, and proceeded to walk down the stairs.

"FUCK TAE" I yelled.

"i love you to" he replied from down stairs.