January
Opposites
i am a jumble of opposites.
i want to create and i want to destroy.
i want to live and i want to die.
i want to be happy and i want to hurt.
i want you to leave me alone, but i want you to notice me.
i want comedy, but i want tragedy.
i want you to like me, but not too much.
i want you, but i don't.
i want him, but i don't.
i want and want and want,
and i throw and throw and throw away.
i want you to leave, but i want you to stay.
would you have me any other way?
Make It Hurt
i want kisses that bruise and bite marks that last.
i want to remember this for days because i can still feel you.
i want to scratch you until you bleed because i know you enjoy it.
i want to push you and order you around.
i want it to be rough.
i want it to hurt because the hurt is so satisfying.
i want it from you because it feels almost wrong that way...
some people cut to get their fix...
i just call you...
Like a Bird in a Cage
let me out of my cage.
i am trapped here, staring after you.
i am stuck here, practically stalking you.
i only want to know you still care.
i want to know that if something happens to me,
you'll be there.
you'll worry.
you'd miss me.
i told you i'm crazy.
everyone has been warned.
hardly anyone believes me,
but you know.
i know you do.
i'm crazy like you.
i'm crazy for you.
i know why the caged bird sings.
it sings for you.
i sing for you.
and locked away,
i long for you.
and when it is free?
when i am free?
i fight for you,
i die for you.
