Dear my closest friend

The Accident

It was a rainy day, just like any other rainy day but this one would bring much more darkness. Life was about to change. Micah was driving home from work and John was at band practice when it all happened. In less then the blink of an eye it all happened. Micah's small car was hit by a truck twice the size. A drunk driver. The last thing she saw was glass and could taste blood in her mouth. The windshield had shattered and the sound haunted her, she heard herself scream and heard the shattering glass and screeching wheels. Her forehead hit the steering wheel before she blacked out. Already blacked out for the second collision one that came from behind her.
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John's POV
I was at band practice with the guys when the phone rang, I left the room to pick it up. I hoped that it was Micah, it wasn't.. this was a call I never wanted to get. A sad voice spoke "I'm sorry to say that your girlfriend has been in a horrible accident, you are the first person on her contact list and I suggest you get down to the hospital immediately." How could this woman speak so calmly. I on the other hand could hardly speak at all "I-...I'll be there in five minutes."

I hung up my phone and walked back into the room. Tears were streaming down my face and I barely croaked out any words to the guys. I was not able to make a full sentence. "Micah...needs..me..hospital.. n-now"
That's all I choked out before running out the door and to my car. I speed there, I know I should not have but I did. She needed me. I stared at the road and started sobbing. I had no idea how bad it would be but it sounded awful. Just the thought of her being in an accident killed me inside. If I lost her...oh god if I lost her. That thought scared me, terrified me like. I parked my car and ran into the hospital and started screaming and sobbing nonsense at the woman who ran the front desk. I was surprised she didn't tell me to calm down. She let me go on with my sobbing and screaming until she could understand me and explained to me that Micah was in critical condition and in surgery currently.
I couldn't handle that I fell to my knees in front of the desk and started sobbing into my hands. The woman came out from behind the desk and helped me into a chair in the waiting room. I couldn't even thank her I was falling apart and my heart was shattered into pieces. She gave me this sad look and I sat in the chair, folding my hands together as I pressed them to my forehead and in the first time in years I started praying.
Dear god
If you are even real I do not know
But if you are... I need to ask you a favor. Don't take her away from me. Dear god, do not take her away from me. She is all I have. All I truly have. The only one who knows everything about me. My darkest secrets and my darkest deepest problems. She's the only one who helps. She's the only one who can make me okay at any time and all the time. I guess I'm selfish? But so many people would miss her not just me. She's well loved. She's wanted. She's precious. She's too young to go. PLEASE DO NOT TAKE HER FROM ME. I am begging you. Let her live. Let her live. Don't take her.
Please don't take my Mici away from me. I need her. I love her. I want to marry her. She is my soul mate. Please. Please don't take her from me.

I was pulled out of my pleas to look up at a doctor with a sad face. That was never ever a good thing to see. I wanted to throw up right there and I didn't even know what he had to say. I was shaking all over again and tears started falling down my cheeks as I started up at him "John Cornelius O'Callaghan V?" He questioned as he looked over my face
Yup that was me alright, of course she put my full name down on the emergency contact list. She adored my full name, normally something like that would make me smile but it made me fall even further into pieces. "Y-yes that's me.."

The doctor looked at me and let out a soft sigh "there is good news and bad news, would you like to hear it here or in private?"

I started up at him and choked out "In private"

I followed him to an empty hospital room and he told me to sit down so I did. I started playing around with my hands nervously. She wasn't here to calm me how was I supposed to do this.
The doctor gave me a moment before he spoke.

"We got her vitals stable, she lost a lot of blood in the crash but we managed to get to her before it was too late. She will have a minor concussion when she wakes up which is lucky. She should be brain dead..." he stopped there and looked at me. I could tell that was the good news. "W-What's the bad news...?"

He looked at me with this pained look and it scared me. What would she not remember me. Would she forget me?
What I heard come out of his mouth next I did not except.
"I'm not sure if you were aware or not, I am not even sure if she was aware or not... She was two months pregnant, she lost the child.. And her chances of ever having a child in the future are slim to none"

I just started at him with this blank look. This was a sick joke right. Wrong. It all made sense honestly there were a few times we got a little too drunk or caught up in the moment that I forgot protection but.. She was pregnant. I would have been a dad. She would have been a mom..
We would have had a family.
Now that was taken away.
I could feel all the color from my face leave and I was a mess of sobs again. I did not care what the doctor said. She would be able to have a child in the future. Did she know? She would have told me wouldn't she have.

I gathered myself together and walked to her room after and dragged a chair to her bed. I sat beside her and took her hand into mine and started singing to her softly. I would be there when she woke up I would make sure of that.