Depression Mode: On

PART 5

So....Today, there was a badminton tournament in school. And obviously, since I am a badminton player, I had to play! Now, my coach put me against a girl who has NEVER trained in her life, so I was like "ok, I think it shall be easy..." When the girl came to know that I was playing against her, she was shocked. That's because I have won her before...she was quite petrified to be playing with me. The umpire, was one of my best-friends, but she didn't cheat- even I wouldn't have cheated, she umpired the game with absolutely NO favourism.
Then came a shot, where once I served, my opponent hit the shuttle and I smashed...and my opponent missed that shot. But the umpire, didn't pay attention to that shot. And even after seeing that I hit the shuttle and my opponent missed it...SHE STILL GAVE THE POINT TO MY OPPONENT. I asked her, how is that possible? And the answer she gave was "Because you served in the wrong side!". Like hey, I don't understand this. My opponent, was serving in the wrong sides ALL that time, and when I missed those shots, you didn't give me the point? LIKE YO??!?!? Honestly saying. I felt BETRAYED.

I lost the game. And my heart broke. Because I. Could. NEVER. Lose like this. This game totally just killed my heart. Many people started to taunt and mock me after that game. It wasn't easy to handle. THE UMPIRES BROTHER AS WELL TAUNTED ME!!!! Can you imagine??? I was crying a lot inside...like- A LOT. I never imagined such a day would come. Not only did the Umpires brother taunt me, also my other friend who I was close to! I was playing with her (free-play) and she didn't give me a good shot...and in a friendly manner (like I always say to her) I just said "WOW" to the shot she made, because it was a bad one...and she replied by saying "SAYS THE PERSON WHO LOST TO THE NON-BADMINTON PLAYER". This totally broke my heart, I got fierce and started smashing on and on again!! Giving her shots she could never imagine to save. And, as I was doing that...the Umpire's brother came and shouted "YOU ARE PLAYING SO WELL HERE... AND THERE YOU LOST TO THAT PERSON" now that, pierced my heart even more!! It felt like someone took a sharp knife and just RIPPED my heart off. Right now. I am in crying...like never before, as I write this. Because it actually did hurt me. OH! And not to forget the IMMENSE BLOODY PRESSURE these guys were giving me (My best friend, I have 3 so this is one of them), the Umpire, the Umpires brother and My close friend ; the one whom I played the free play game with.

Now I feel like a total piece of shit. Failed in swimming, Basketball, Tennis, Table tennis and now badminton!! You guys might be wondering like, is this person mental or something? Calling themselves a failure after losing one game? But, I have not only lost this game. I have lost many other more. I have lost against players from other clubs and schools. I haven't earned even 1 single medal since the day I started to play. I have been playing for about 3-4 years now...and yet...haven't won a single game!! At this point. I'd call myself a TOTAL FAILURE. BECAUSE I FAIL IN EVERY SINGLE DAMN THING!! I hate myself and this life which is filled with bad luck!

Lesson 5: Don't go taunting someone even if they lost just one game, because you actually don't know how it has been played with them.

(So guys. Just try your best not to hurt someone's feelings... especially the sensitive people)
I didn't know how backstabbing people could actually be.
Dhar Mann was write, the people who you get closer to, soon become your enemies.