Depression Mode: On

Part 4

Today, I went through too much. Lifting the stress of 6 bad things that have happened to us in this one week. First, my aunts car rolled, then someone hit the side mirror of our mercedes, after that my brother got into an accident, in that same day my dads car got hit by a metal rod, the next day my other aunts house gets robbed, and now finally another accident, where our car got hit once again, which was today. It's really unbelievable that all that has happened in one week, really, this is the worst week of my life, except that school closed for one day. But this is not the reason to why part 4 is written. 

This afternoon, I went to visit my great grandmother. In the mean time, my best friend calls me to ask me weather I am going to be playing on the xbox tonight or not. I asked my mom if I could play, and she agreed. I was all excited and happy because I finally got to play on the Xbox after a really long time, and most importantly, I NEVER GET TO PLAY! So this was my one and only chance. 

Finally, it's night. I'm done with dinner and back home. All excited to go and play, but of course someone has to come to ruin the night. My brother told me that if I wanted to play, I'd have to go and buy a car in his account first. Half of my time and energy was already wasted on that, and then once I got to my account, I played for an hour and that was it. My best friend came online and I then asked for the headset from my brother (after all he had all the things for the Xbox), he disagreed to give me the headset. Reason being that he wants to go to sleep because he has to wake up at 6.30 in the morning and that I am not allowed to play with my best friend, and why am I  not allowed? That's because of the type of language he uses with the rest of his friends. 

It's really annoying when someone is there trying to control your life. I am here, being controlled in every move I make in the city and in my life, instead of my father being my father, my brother is being my father which is not cool! I personally don't like it, because when I tell my brother not to do something, he won't listen to me and when he asks me to do something and I don't do it, he would get mad at me and abuse me. Yep, that's my life. People out there be really thinking that my brother is chill and like I have an amazing life...well NO! 

He wasn't able to qualify from the O levels finals, which means that he'd have to re-sit the exam, so he's doing it...again. Now, because he's re-sitting the exam, I have to suffer by not being able to play on the Xbox, and when I'm stressed, I need something to do (something I like) and that's listening to music, going to the theaters and  playing on the Xbox. These are the things that can get me out of stress, but if I do any of them, I am shouted at. This is the only time I get to play the Xbox, which the time is already been taken away from me. So...bye-bye Xbox. IT REALLY ANNOYS ME WHEN I'M TOLD TO DO SOMETHING THAT MY BROTHER WANTS, because nothing is done the way I want, when I want my brother to do something, he'll never do it, instead he'll just put up a fight against me and as always, he'd expect me to remain SILENT! Which many people know that I am not so stupid to do so...any woman who knows that they are right and the man is controlling them, they shan't stay silent, they shall raise their voice, to prove the other wrong. 

Lesson 4: Don't ever try to snatch away the devils favorite toy! 

(The lesson means that, never try to control others, especially when they are under pressure)