Looking at the Truth

Prologue

Prologue

   Happy. You have a smile on your face and be in an energetic mood. But what’s really in the inside? A dark secret, a tragic event, loneliness? No one’s happy all the time. There are times when being miserable is the only thing you have to do. There’s no stopping on how you really feel, you just got to let it out. And if you aren’t, who’s going to help you?

   I wish this included me. I can’t show my feelings no matter how much I try. Even if I can, who’s going to be there truly? I have a true friend out of the ones that befriend me because I’m rich. If I told anybody about my incident four years ago and about my family, who knows what they’d say. Now that I’m the most popular girl in high school, it could be worse. It would be the most social conversation for three weeks, max. I can’t live with the embarrassment again. I have to hide away my depression and suffering through a masquerade that I wear in front of the people I know. I can’t take any chances not doing it.

   Maybe I’m being too serious about this, but you wouldn’t think so if you were me. Think about it: pretending to be someone you’re not every single day because you’re terrified to show your true emotions, and life.

   I have a complicated life, but I have days where my lie goes right. I’m that popular girl in school everybody likes and knows. But maybe that’s not what I want. I just want to show my actual self and live a somewhat normal life. Yet I don’t want to be the silent and scared girl everybody would find weird and hate.

   There’s no other choice I really have. I only see one path that I could take. And maybe at the end I can finally let it all go. I can’t make everything better in life. I could, but what would the risk be?