Praise me, Love me, Kill me | Stray Kids AU | Minsung

Only two letters

Jisung's apartment

Jeongin opened the door right in the middle of Hyunjin kissing Jisung.

The latter pushed Hyunjin away from him, then moved his attention to his brother.

-Did I intrerupt something? Jeongin asked awkwardly.

-No. Did you bring it?

Jeongin passed the bat to Jisung who examined it.

-No blood stains? Jisung asked worried.

-All clean, hyung. As I promised.

-What did you do? Hyunjin asked gazing at Jisung.

-Chill. I just took care of someone. I didn't kill him.

-Well, that's clearly not your style, Hyunjin raised an eyebrow. You are the kind to finish the job quick. Don't like the dirt. Why did you let the rat alive?

-It was too risky. I need to make every move in a smart way. Anyway...Jisung changed the subject all of a sudden. My lovely Innie was so good to clean the house before the police arrival, he said squeezing Jeongin in his arms. Does your back hurt? Hyunjin let you carry all these heavy stuff. Poor Innie.

Hyunjin cringed at the scene.

-I can't believe how much he treats like you like a baby, Hyunjin uttered after Jisung left the room. Is he that oblivious?

-I am the youngest. The cute one. Not in the family business. That was our deal. I go to school and he protects us all.

-I know you're not related, but you behave so much like him. It terrifies me.

Jeongin smirked and stepped closer to Hyunjin.

-I don't want you to see me as a copy of Jisung hyung. I can be whoever I want and since you are here to keep us safe, you'll have to deal with us as crazy as we are.

-Give me the key back, Cupcake, Hyunjin looked down at him.

-Take it yourself.

Their eye contact was so intense. Hyunjin grabbed Jeongin's collard and took the key who was hanging on his neck.

-Behave or else I'll tell your brothers what you do every Sunday with this key, Hyunjin leaned down a little.

-Very well. Don't you miss the part when you help with every Sunday to do it. I'm sure my brothers would be thrilled to hear that.

-Stay there, you brat!

Jisung was pushed down the stairs and locked in the dark basement. His head hit the concrete, but he ignored the pain and got up, crawling back to the door and trying the knob desperately.

When he realised he was locked, he started bumping with his fists in the wood.

-Open up! Please! Please! Don't hurt Innie or hyung! Please! Hurt me instead! I deserve it!

After his voice gave up, he decided to find any light source. He found a box of matches and light up the room.

Suddenly he heard a sound of bars. He stepped closer, gulping in fear when he saw a huge cage covered with a curtain.

He took it off and saw two eyes staring at him.

-Are you my brother too? Jisung asked looking carefully at the boy's features.

Jisung was the first to be adopted. Jeongin and Changbin came short after.

There were other kids before, but they didn't survive. So everytime Jisung would find a kid, he would ask the same question "Are you one of my brothers?" which was equivalent to "They brought you here too?".

The boy in the cage reached his hand towards Jisung and mumbled:

-I'm Hyunjin.

Jisung shook hands with him, then replied:

-I'm...Ji.

Among the traumatising tortures his adoptive parents used to apply, there was a specific one.

Everytime Jisung had stole food or supplies, he would have been punishment by being spanked.

The numbers of hits were the numbers of letters in his name.

So when Hyunjin asked him his name, he chose to say only two letters of his name.

Time has passed, yet Hyunjin kept calling Jisung like that.

A hotel

Felix woke up after an hour in a strange bed.

He jumped out of it expecting to see a rapper or killer. Or worst. To see Jisung.

-Lix! Why are you on the floor? Did you fell in your sleep?

Changbin rushed to the boy and helped him stand up.

Felix looked at Changbin like he was seeing a saint. He could swore there was a hallow above the older's head. It was so beautiful and his touch warmed up Felix's body until he started tearing up.

-Lix? What did I do? Changbin said panicked.

-Nothing...said Felix though the sobs. I just...I feel safe with you.

-You want to talk about what happened? Cause "Binnie, come quickly! Someone drugged me and I'm gonna die in a nasty room of a hospital" doesn't clarify the situation.

-Hold me.

-What? Changbin asked in confusion.

Felix jumped in Changbin's arms, burying his face in the crock of his neck.

-Hold me tight, Binnie. I'm so grateful for having you in my life! I'm sorry for judging you. For saying you're poor and shit. I am a horrible narcissistic person. I can't even imagine why you accepted me, but here we are. You're the only one I rely on. I love you, Seo Changbin! I love you so much! So please don't break my heart like the others did. Cause it's gonna hurt much more than any other heartbreak. You will fucking destroy me if you leave me. Please don't go! Don't ever go!

Felix was gripping on Changbin's shirt, while his tears were dropping on Changbin's skin.

-You wanna know a secret, Lix? said Changbin caressing Felix's back. You are my first love. I've never been to a date before meeting you. Never did it before. Never felt like that. Which may seem embarrassing for a grown up man. But I genuinely love being with you and I will take care of you with the price of my life. I promise!

Jisung's apartment

Jisung was laying in his bed looking at the pictures the sasaeng took before they got killed by Jisung.

His mind was a messy place and his thinking was based only on three principles that were ringing over and over again in his head.

"Praise me, mother...Look! I killed them!"

"Love me, father...I was good. I didn't steal food this time"

"Kill me, brother...I am a monster"