Sterek one shot

Just be honest

Derek's POV

"You are late", I growl, "Again"
Stiles simply ingnores me and plopps himself down on my couch. He smells of something between sad,angry and nervous. My wolf doesn't like it and so did I.

During the whole meeting I was distracted, Stiles was  constandly tapping his feet on the floor and cracking his fingerbones.
It was driving me crazy. My wolf was screaming at me telling me to walk over to him and comfort him but of course my subborn mind had to ruin everthing. And I regretted it  even before the words even left my mouth.
"Stiles could you PLEASE god damn stop moving for once. Just for once stop being so annoying. Some people here actually are trying to pay attention."
The moment he looked up into my eyes I wanted to cry. The only smell left in the air was the pain of Stiles, the pain I had cursed.
He stands up and walks over to me.
I didn't know that words were able to hurt as much as Stiles next words did.
" You know what Derek, I know Okay I know! I know that I am annoying, I know that I am just standing in your guys way, I know that                              I am only a fragile human. I know! But I know that I fucking care okay and I can't change that even tho I know that You don't want me around I can't change that I care! So fuck you and can your stupid werewolfears hear me? Fuck you!"
He then turns around and storms out of the loft.
The whole pack was looking shocked. For a minute no one said anything.
And then suddenly I feel a burning pain on my right cheek and right after that I find myself face to face with the floor.
When I look up I see an angry looking Scott. He gives me a last glare before he storms of. Probably running after his best friend who I hurt.
I feel stupid.
I feel horrible.
I felel like never getting up again.
"Everybody out", Peter yells," Now!"
The pack shots up and all rush out. For a few moments Peter just stands next to me and looks down. He then sits himself down next to me.
"Derek", he starts, " You need to be honest You need to tell him."
I stay silent. I knew that he is right. That wasn't the reason that I couldn't answer. I just am afraid to break into tears as soon as I open my mouth.
He then starts again.
" Okay I will give you three minutes to bath yourself in selfpity and then I will scream at you for hurting your mate like that. Time starts now."
Peter stands up and starts to clean the loft. 
I close my eyes as a tear rolled down my face.

I Know that the three minutes are over when I feel Peters feet kicking in my stomach and when he starts to yell at me.
"You stupid Idiot. Not telling him that he is your mate is one thing but hurting him like that. Not only that you blamed him for behaviour of his that he can't change but you also broke his hurt. Did you smell him. God how stupid can you be. I get that you are afraid of getting hurt, I get that you are afraid of hurting him, but Derek", his voice goes softer and he places a hand on my shoulder, "Derek, I know that you are afraid. And you have every right to be. But that doesn't gives you the right treat him like that."
"How am I supposed to ever make it up to him. H-how will I ever make him forgive me." I feel like like the one time when I was ten years old, that time when I broke my moms favorite picture frame and thought that she would never forgive me. Peter was there and comforted me.
Peter suddenly starts to laught. I looks up at him confused what he finds so funny about this situation.
"I know what you are thinking right now", he chuggels, "Do you still remember what I told you back then?
I stay silent again. I know the answer but I wantto hear it again, I need to hear it again.
Peter smils, "I told you to be honest. Derek, Just be honest."
He stands up and stretches out his hand to help me up.
I breathe in and take his hand.
"Go get him Big Wolf", Peter says and then pushes me towards the door.

I arriv at Stiles house and see that Scotts motocycle was stil parked in front of it. So I do what I usally do. I clime up the house and sit on the roof letting Stiles scent surround me, he still smeels hurt but he also smeels relieved I am not sure why but it calmes my wolf. Not much but at least a bit.