"Then Perish"

5

Warning: CNC (Consensual non consent), Mentions of self harm

Beep......Beep.....Beep....Beep

Waking up to that annoying sound was terrible. Shut up. You groan, opening your eyes. "Come on, sleepy head, it's training day." Fuck. Sighing you sit up on the bed. You get out of bed, and get ready for the day. Keigo and you drove over to the training facility.

(Time skips to the end of training.)

(also sexual topics and implied self harm coming up just a warning)

Exhaustion couldn't even begin to describe what you were feeling. You and Keigo had trained the whole day, as well as sparring. Bruises littered most of your arms and legs. Everything was so sore you just wanted to take a cold shower and get to sleep, so that's exactly what you did. You dragged yourself to the bathroom, and took a cold shower. God everything hurts. Keigo was going really hard on me. You got dressed and headed straight to bed.

You soon felt Keigo get into the bed behind you, he wrapped his hands around your torso bringing you closer to him. You felt his hands slowly begin to wander around. Oh no, not now, please. Stiffening at his touch. One of his hands went over to your chest, where he groped you. No, please. "Keigo?" You spoke up hoping he would get the message but alas he didn't, Instead he lowered his other hand to your thighs, touching and squeezing them. Shifting uncomfortably only caused him to tighten his grip on you. Stop. His mouth found your neck, kissing and biting it. "Please stop, Not tonight, please." you begged, trying to get out of his grip. "Come on baby, don't be like that." He kept on touching you. Tears started to swell up in your eyes. Get off, please. "No, I don't want to." You pleaded. You heard him chuckle before he got on top of you pinning you to the bed. "Come on baby, plus you owe me one, I've been taking care of you all day." he smirked, looking into your eyes. His eyes, I can't. You let a single tear fall as you sigh. "Fine, but be gentle." you whispered. "Oh but where's the fun in that?"

He used you that night, he manipulated you into doing something you didn't want to do. Why? WHY did I let him? You were currently sobbing in your bed, while he sleeps so peacefully. His eyes. The way the could calm you down in seconds. You curled into a ball, hugging your body. Even though it wasn't the first time you had done it with him, it felt different this time. The feeling of disgust and self hatred started to bubble inside you. Feeling sick to your stomach. Why is this happening to me? The more you thought about what he had done, the more disgusted you felt. Your breathing becomes shallow, picking up in speed. Sobs wreaked your body, your chest hurt feeling like it would explode at any minute. Bringing your hand up to your chest, grabbing your shirt. Make it stop. You tried calling out to him, failing as you couldn't get your voice over a whisper. All your emotions hit you like a train. Your chest tightened even more, breathing becoming harder, your body began to shake. HELP. Slowly sitting up in the bed, getting out of bed and making it to the bathroom. You close the door .Ok he's not here. Deep breaths. In. out. In. out. After a while you finally were able to calm down your breathing. Sitting against the door, tears still running down your face. Looking around, your eyes landing on something shiny under the sink. Reaching out to grab it. A razor blade rested on your hand as you stare down at it intently Should I? Grabbing the blade with your hand, holding it close to your wrist.

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"Are you serious? What do you mean the plan changed." Keigo was currently screaming into the phone as you sat on the couch. Was it worth it? ''You want me to do what?!" He looked over at you, his eyes met yours. Those eyes, the warm honey, deep golden color. They calm you down in seconds. So pretty. Keigo's eyes suddenly get filled with fear and anger, as he storms off into the room. Leaving you concerned, and alone again. What's going on? You walked over to the room leaning against the close door. "No. Fuck, I know I said I that I wanted them gone but not like this." You stepped back from the door hoping that he wasn't talking about you. Deep down you knew who he was talking about. Deciding not to think about it, since today was your last day of rest.

You went out to the back garden and sat down in the middle. Taking in a deep breath. Looking up into the grand blue sky, littered with white feathery clouds. The sun warms the earth with a light glow. The light breeze swung by making you smile. This feels nice. You look back down at the garden, the. flowers swaying in the wind. You laid back on the grass, searching as you felt all the weight of life fly away with the wind. Laying there, feeling the sun's warmth on your skin, the light breeze flowing over you. Relaxing completely, you stayed there for a while. Until you heard the back door that led to the garden open. Knowing it was him you just stayed there. He walked over to where you laid and sat next to you, looking straight ahead.

"You know when I first met you, I never thought we were going to end up together, and I'm so glad we did." Do you really mean that? He smiled looking up at the sun before looking back down at you. The sun his eyes in the right way. They glowed, with their deep golden color. wow, so pretty. You smiled back up at him, scooting closer to him. "Here." He said as he positioned you so your head laid in his lap. His hand ran through your hair. Don't go. Looking back up at the sky, he was doing the same thing. "You're the light of my life." You smile looking at him once more. Something flashed in his eyes for a second before going back to normal. "You are too." He smiled even wider, bending down to kiss you. You giggled and kissed him back. Stay like this forever. He sat back up. "How about we have a picnic outside today." He said looking at you. You smiled and nodded. He left to get some food and you set up the picnic. You two spent the day eating and looking up at the sky. Talking about life and all your memories. Laughing and having a good time. Not a clue of what was to happen.

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