Random stuff I think about and do In 2022

Thursday, March 10

School today was so awkward

TW: talk of ED  and disordered eating

1. in health we were talking about eating disorders and disordered eating and our teacher said "how to you feel to know that at least 2/3 or the women in this room struggle with disordered eating and at least 1/3 of the men do too" LIKE WTF?!?! YOU DONT SAY SHIT LIKE RHAT

it was pretty much a tutorial on how to have an eating disorder and not helpful at all if anything I felt worse after (I don't have a diagnosed ED but struggle with stuff I don't talk about)

2. This one isn't uncomfortable but I feel bad

we were talking about To kill a mocking bird and the N word used in literature specifically huckleberry finn

i'm the only black person in my class and our desks are in pods of three

one girl in my pod was so uncomfortable and her voice was shaking. she kept eye contact with me the whole time and you could tell she was uncomfortable with the topic

I felt so bad I wanted to tell her it's ok and she can talk about the topic but I didn't want her to know that it was obvious :(

we all agreed that the word shouldn't be censored (there's a publishing company that changed the N word to slave) because they're two different words and your supposed to be uncomfortable reading it. But we also agreed that if you aren't black you shouldn't say it.

In the end my day ended up being me feeling bad about myself and my eating habits and me feeling bad for the girl 😀

I'm good tho ended up throwing my brother into a pool of sharks (gang beast iykyk)