Book of Pain

Lord of the liers

Some people tend to lie about how they feel. It's not like anyone would know. It's only because people don't look deeper into the fake smile some of us put on to hide what's really going on deep down inside. But truly does anyone care..... not at all they blow it off as if it's nothing because they don't understand. People build off this type of pain are natural born hiders of emotions because they don't want no one to care about them or have another person worried about them. To be quite frank I don't blame them. Because you constantly get looked at as the person who's a burden to the ones your around and you hate it. So what do we do? We act, like no Fr we act like everything is fine and ok like the world is made up of sunshine and rainbows, but no it's just gray clouds and thunder storms that stay over our heads as we act in front of our love one like everything is ok. Sadly it's not and that brings me to the first demon and that's the one in your head. Now I know it sounds crazy but I don't mean it like that. What I mean is after a full day of acting and you go home and sit alone you start to criticize yourself and start to talk to yourself which makes you hate being alone because you can't act anymore not to yourself at least to be happy by your lonesome because your little bit of happiness is gone until you have to act again. That's how I feel most days... sorry audience I don't mean to drift off like that it's just a force of habit some times. But yes that little bit of happiness doesn't last forever some days I wish it did. Now is there a solution to person who experience this? yes and no, now the only reason I say that is because it depends on the person and how you handle most of your problems. Now on to the solution and it's only one to be truthfully honest it's basically surrounded yourself people you have to act in-front of and no it's not the best solution but aye at least you'll be happy it might come to the point where you might know your acting anymore. Let's hope we don't get to that point but yeah. LORD OF THE LIER 1-2