Forever a mystery part 4: We'll get her back for you

There's nothing you can say

4:00 0n the dot girls. It's good to see you Farrah. I know you go by Jade I'm sorry. It's just I knew it I feel like the whole time but didn't want to put either of you in danger if I told you I knew who you were. Because ironically its better and safer for you to live with vampires than with humans. Better for you to be your this life biological aunt and your past life twin brother. I confessed to Bella that I knew who you were when you all disappeared. I thought that it was time for the 3 of us to get together and spend sometime together occasionally now that I know that I'm covered from all things Aro. Your mother is or was a shield. And you have everyone's powers. And I wanted to talk to you and be a part of your life any part of your life. If you would let me be but I knew the only chances of that happening were if Edward got to check in every so often and if you knew I knew who you really were. At least in my eyes.

And I would love that. As long as Edward knows where I am at all times and if I check in with him every half or every hour that I'm away from him. Anyways Bella I need you to know that you're not in trouble. You did what you felt was right. I didn't like that you took off without asking. You could've gotten yourself killed. And at the time she didn't know who either of you were thanks to that monster. And you scared the hell out of me. And I'd like it if you made choices to go see the friends you don't see often. Or for that matter I know it doesn't look like it because after he found his memories and before then that Jake and Edward are a lot like brothers and your aunt and uncle have seen him as part of the family for a long time. But he's going through something. Something he knows if he spoke to about it with anyone other than you or with Jessica that his friends might just brush it off and everyone would tell him that he belongs in the family.

If for no other reason because he's "been in the family" for a long time because whatever your aunt says goes. Your uncle does everything he can to make her happy and now your sister. Ever since she became theirs and then more so after what she re-went through in the last several months. She will never be ok Bella. I'm right here. I know I'm just thinking out loud. Farrah Bella Edward will never realize it on his own but even more so because of the tattoo being taken away even if that symbolizes some kind of thing that his dad understands Jake feels he belongs in that family that no one would ever understand because of the 4 of you. He gestures to me but.... But he's still having some kind of identity crisis. In our little group he wants to be called Jordan but to everyone else he wants them to call him Jacob. Stuck between the past and present. A werewolf but his "kin" are vampires. He thinks he knows exactly what he wants but his feelings are biased because the people he loves are vampires. The people he relates to are vampires.

It's been too long that they've been apart but in so many ways not at all. Edward was there for him when he was going through grief of losing his mother. Sam was one of his best friends had been like a brother to him a real one. And then one day he became a wolf and it was like they never got along. Edward never changed he became a vampire but out of the other 3 he never became a different person. They cling to him like their lives depend on it. I couldn't agree more. I don't mean to talk as if you're not in the room Farrah I just need to get all the cards on the table. I understand dad Bella nods her head. You're not a girly girl Bella and I mean that as a compliment but you're also not one of well "them" you will give him the kind of tough love the others won't. Not in the way he needs. Or doesn't know he needs. You seemed to get through to him in someway when they were gone. But when you were going through hell he was there for you. He seemed fine just now. She gestured behind her as if he was outside the door.

I know he probably did Bella but you seem to be the only one that can get an honest to G-D answer out of him. He tells you and Jessica things that he doesn't feel like he can tell the other guys. That the other Cullen's don't 100% think of him as being part of the family. He's being torn down the middle. That's when Bella remembered the dream Jake told her about and it sounded like it was right out of it. Her heart ached and I could feel it. I reached my hand out and touched her hand. But that night no one had heard from him the rest of the day it seemed. We had tried to reach out to him but if he didn't try and reach back out we would give him space. If this was something true and honest which it must've been because it came from word of mouth through the dads. Bella tried to go see him said she only had until graduation to see Jake before Edward planned to turn her like she hoped. But she couldn't get anywhere. Even though he wanted to be there for him same as her and even if he didn't fully identify as a wolf anymore but there was still that line. And he knew it wasn't safe for her. Even if Jake wouldn't hurt her because he didn't want this. But couldn't decide the same for the rest of the wolves.