~𝓹𝓸𝓮𝓶𝓼 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓼𝓾𝓬𝓱~

That Girl.

"You're smart!" 

they said.

Am I? Am I really?

I've been told since I was young that I'm a smart kid. 

But am I really when so much is wrong with me?

 I've always been an advanced student in school.

But I'm stupid. 

The end of the year is nearing and I'm falling into a pit that I can't get out of.

History Test: Failed.

Math Test: You only passed because you studied for hours upon end all night.

English Test: "Oh she made a 100." I didn't even take it yet. 

People assume things they shouldn't assume.

"She got the lead in the musical!" 

By default because I'm favored.

"Oh her dad is the drummer at her church. Her family must be awesome." 

No actually. Always have those headphones handy for yelling outbursts or political debates.

"OMG, you're on Honor Roll? That's so cool!" 

Well I'm not anymore after that History test, but gotta keep my ego up, or I'll get thrown around, you know?

"Aww she's always so happy!"

Someone has to keep other people from hurting themselves. Doesn't mean I can stop myself. 

"Oh she's so pretty, don't you think!?"

Yeah thanks, I starve myself everyday.

Don't assume things you don't know. 

It's unquestionably one of the stupidest things a human being can do. 

She may look gleeful and perfect on the outside. But on the inside… 

She's struggling with:

Anxiety

Depression

Home Troubles

Mental Health

Self Image

Body Image

OCD

Who She Even Is… What Her Place Is In The World.

That girl just wants someone to talk with her. And cry with her. And be there for her. Even when no one else will. 

Because that,

That,

Is what that girl does.