F**k You, I Love You

Chapter 3 - Anna

      I wake up to police lights and sirens. My legs are in pain and I can move them thankfully but I can't move, I'm stuck. I see people running to the car when I happen to look over at my mom, dead. I start to cry and they start to drag me out of the car. How did all this happen? It was like any other day, I woke up, got ready for school, got in the car to be dropped off at school. Why did all this happen? They put me on the stretcher and rolled me into the ambulance. They all were asking me what hurts and are you ok? I was crying so much I couldn't even think. The physical pain I felt didn't hurt as much as what was going through my head. I couldn't wrap my head around the fact my mom died. That's what was hurting me the most.
      While riding on the ambulance I'm still crying, I couldn't stop. Seeing my mother's lifeless body lay next to me hurt so deep down in my heart. All the EMTs are talking around me saying things I couldn't understand. My head was hurting a lot, my eyes were heavy, my body was hurting. Laying on the stretcher in the bumpy ambulance helpless was tiring. I decided to just close my eyes and wake up from this terrible nightmare.

      I wake up and realize I'm in the hospital. My head and legs aren't hurting as much as they were since they gave me painkillers or something like that. I look around and see my dad sitting next to me sleeping. How long have I been sleeping? Hours? Days? Weeks? Years? This was all going through my head and it freaked me out. I start to cry silently and I sit in the hospital bed drowning in my thoughts. What year is it? Did I miss Abby growing up? Did my dad have to take care of everything that happened on his own? All these thoughts and questions started to freak me out and that's when I started to sob. My dad wakes up abruptly and gets up to hug to tell me everything's ok.
      As he's holding me in his arms a doctor walks in. She has black straight hair and soft skin. She looks young and sweet. She starts to talk and her voice is calming and soft spoken just like my mothers. My dad and her start to talk. As they're talking and I listen to her voice I start to calm down. I wipe my tears and sniffle as my dad lets go of me.
      "Hi Anna, my name's Melissa," she says with a smile. "I've been your doctor for the past week."
      I sit there and I feel relief off my shoulders. I've only been asleep for a week, what could I have possibly missed? I mean missing the first week of school is bad enough but it's not the end of the world right? But what if it wasn't for a week? What if she just started being my doctor this week? Oh God what is going on?
      "Happy to see that you're finally awake sweetie. Didn't want you to miss out on senior year" she says.
      Oh thank goodness it really has been a week. "Yea that would really suck" I say.
      She starts telling me what's wrong with me and why I was asleep for a week. She tells me that I only suffered from a little bit of head trauma and a broken leg. Since I'm so young she decided to put me in a medically induced coma for a week for the head trauma to heal and this headache I'm feeling is just from the healing process and that it's normal. I lay back in relief that it wasn't anything too serious. Melissa and my dad decide to walk outside the room to talk. I would assume it's about me.
      I look outside the window to see a red cardinal sitting in a tree staring at me. Red cardinals mean that it's usually a loved one coming to you. My mom always talked about that, I always thought it was a beautiful thing. I smile as a tear rolls down my cheek. The red cardinal is my mom watching over me making sure I'm ok. My dad walks back in and notices I'm looking outside the window.
      "That red cardinal has been there this whole week," he says. "It's your mother."
      "She always talked about them." I say