F**k You, I Love You

Chapter 4 - Noah

      This past week I've been worried about Anna. Is she ok? How's she been? She was all I could think about. I tried to play some football outside with my brother one day but all I can think about is her. Abby was coming over today for a playdate since her dad is busy with work and the funeral and making sure Anna is ok when she comes home from the hospital. I hope Abby doesn't know what happened but she still needs to know about her sister and mom. When Anna comes home I really would love to visit her but I'm probably the last person she would want to see. At the end of the day I treat her like she's nothing to me. Am I selfish for what people would think about me? Yes but would she tell me to not tell people how I truly feel about her since she worries about my reputation? Yes. Though she never actually told me that, she's told basically every other person that. Maybe I'll try and ask my mom when she's coming back since my mom and Anna's dad are also best friends. Why is everyone but me and Anna best friends?
      Today I didn't have practice so I just came straight home, I had nothing else to do. I come home an hour before Aidan comes home so I at least have a little bit of free time to myself. Abby is also coming over so he'll be occupied with her. Obviously I'll be watching them since they are both children and need an adult with them. They're both really good kids together and I know that they won't do anything bad but you never know. I feel bad for Abby though, she's probably wondering where her sister is right now. Anyway for now I'm just going to get my homework done so that I don't have to do it later or when Abby gets here since that'll be a hassle.
     
      As I'm finishing up on my geometry homework I hear the doorbell ring and Aidan screaming "I GOT IT". I get up so I can greet Abby and her dad at the door.
      "Hey Abby and Mr. Ledger" I say with a reassuring smile on my face.
      "Hey kid" Anna's dad says with a forced smile. God I feel so bad for him.
      Abby and her dad hug and kiss goodbye and she runs through the door. We both laugh at them while they run into the TV room.
      "Hey Mr. Ledger I'm so sorry about your loss and Anna."
      "Thanks, it's been a rough couple of days for me. I told Abby about everything which made me feel terrible since she didn't take it too well but I think she's having a good day today though since Anna's coming back home today" he says with saddened eyes.
      "Look if you ever need anything my family is right around the corner and a phone call away. If you want I can drive Abby home that wouldn't be a problem."
      "I don't know, I don't want you going out of your way."
      "It's ok I promise" I say with a smile.
      "Alright I guess that's ok" he says with a smile.
      "Ok I'll drop her off at seven o'clock?"
      "Yea that's good."
      "Okay, see you at seven."
      We say goodbye and I close the door. I walk into the TV room to find Abby and Aidan drawing with each other on the ground. I lay down on my stomach next to them and look at what they're drawing. I take a closer look at the drawings and they're both of Anna.
      "What are you guys drawing?" I ask.
      "We're drawing cards for Anna. Wanna join?" Abby asks.
      "Sure."
      As I'm drawing with them it really starts to make me think about how much I like Anna. Hopefully seeing these cards will make her smile but I don't know about mine. It's coming from me and she hates me. Unless she wants to see me and talk to me. I doubt that though. Why would she want to see someone who makes fun of her and teases her all the time? I hope I make her feel better, that's all I want.