Loki one shots

Loki finds out💚

Tw=self harm
Backstory:
You and Loki are a couple
This is where he finds out you self harm and he comforts you.

Start

You are sat in your room having a panic attack you wasn't sure of the reason but it was bad and you was struggling to control it. Every time you eventually catch your breath it gets worse and more out of hand. You have been clean for a couple of days but you knew that it will probably be the only thing to help you in this situation the only thing that you will be able to control the only thing to make you calm (Tw). So you pull out your sewing box where you hid your blades and pull back you shorts and starts dragging the blade across you skin. The cut turns white then slowly turns red, those are the ones you like those one tend to be deeper,you watch at the blood crawls down your thigh painting it red. You forget everything else and draw back the blade doing several more filling up both thighs. But as you was only starting to calm down you start on your upper arm and claw the blade through your skin several more times. When you finally come back to reality after staring at what you just did you wait for the blood to rest and dry on your skin the wipe the blood from the bottom of your leg. You don't wipe the actual cut as you know it won't heal/scar the way you want.
As you change your bloody clothes you start to feel dizzy but you know you have to go down stairs soon and face everyone even though all you want to do is pass out on your bed and not socialise.
You make your way down stairs and see everyone waiting for you, you take a deep breath before entering the room and put on a fake smile. When you see Loki you have an automatic wave of guilt but also comfort; you sit next to him and he gives you a hug.
"Are you ok darling, not really seen you all day" he says with a sympathetic smile sensing something is up.
"Yes, I'm fine thanks for asking. I was just abit tired today" you say avoiding eye contact as you knew you would cry.
Tony just rolls his eyes "get a room"
"We have one" Loki responds in a cheeky manner
Nat chuckles "I think it's cute. Anyway we all wanted to play a game right so let's get started"
You all start to play games ,laugh and joke. You do join in but Loki can tell something is off (he always knows, no matter how well you hide it) he decides to not say anything until you go bed.
After Thor won the game everyone started to laugh and tell jokes and Thor made sure everyone knew he won. You subconsciously start to itch your thigh and Loki notices but did not say anything. As you itch it you go to far and feel a sharp pain. No one else noticed but it started to bleed a lot. Since it was night you knew you could leave without an excuse or being questioned.
"Ok I think I'm going bed now, it's been a good night thanks" you say covering your thigh with you hand.
Everyone wishes you a good night and you was about to walk away but you notice everyone but Loki turned away. He looked at your leg and there was blood on it, you look down and tears fill your eyes, you make eye contact so now you know he knows and your glad everyone turned away or they would know too.

Before anything else happened you walked out of the room and as soon as you met the stairs you sprinted up them crying and panicking. You didn't know what to think, was he going to be mad maybe even hate you for not saying something but you just ran until you reached your door which felt miles away.
You heard thuds trailing behind you, you didn't have to look you knew it was him.
"Y/n" his voice boomed around the 3rd floor
You felt sort arms slide around you waist and a gentle voice whisper in you ear.
"It's ok y/n, I'll help you but we can't speak in the open like this"
You was stunned and you didn't know what to do or where to move you avoided all eye contact but he didn't wait he just picked you up and carried you to his room and locked the door.
He placed you on his bed.
"You know we have to clean these up, I know you don't want to but we have to"
As you avoided eye contact."yeah I know"
He trails his fingers around your face and softly lists your chin up to face him.
As soon as you saw his shimmering crystal eyes. Tears crawled out of yours "I'm sorry, I should have told you Loki. I know I should stop but I can't I-" you try to catch you breathe
"Y/n it's ok, I still love you. I will help you deal with it and never feel bad if you relapse I would prefer you to talk to me before it ever resorts back to this. You don't have to tell me anything you don't want to, but I will help you, I'm not going to let you struggle on your own okay"
He says calmly with a gentle smile. You throw your arms around him and bury you face in his chest as he is knelt in front of you.
He brings you to the bathroom and cleans your cuts up trying not to hurt you but every so often you would flinch from the pain especially on the deeper ones.
"I love you y/n just know that okay."
"I love you too" you say.