Forgotten (Kian lawley fanfic)

Four

I don't know why it felt so different than any other kiss I had ever had before. This one was kind of...special in some way I guess. Ughhhh I thought to myself, I walked quickly wanting to just grow wings and fly back to my house so kian wouldn't see me.

I got home threw my shoes on the corner of my room and took off Zoe's leash, as she ran off to drink water I jumped onto my bed and just thought about what would happen if I had stayed at the store after the kiss.

*buzz* *buzz*

Kate-"Nicky?"
Nicky-"Nope it's Obama
HAHA Kate so how bout we hang out i haven't seen you in forever"
Kate-"Ya cool come over"

Somehow I felt like having Nicky around would make me forget about kian. I don't know if I should go see him again or not but I really liked him and surprisingly he liked me back, or I think, I mean that's why he kissed me right.

Minutes laters Nicky arrives and I welcome her."Ayeeee so what have u been up" she said while sitting down on my bed. "Nothing much.." I hesitated deciding whether or not I should tell her about the kiss."alright spit it out, what is it" Nicky says "someone kissed me!" I blurt out not realizing what I had just done."WHATTTTT and you hesitated about telling me this? This is gold!" She practically yelled "I know but anyways so this guy at the camera store he kissed me like out of nowherel" i explained "well... How did you react?" She asked "nothing I just kinda was shocked, and now I don't know what to do, should I go back and talk to him or should I just forget about the whole thing?" I asked her desperately. "Go back to the store no, but forget about it either. We need to think of something else, another way for you to kinda contact him or something." She explained to me.

Nicky was right, I couldn't just forget about the whole kiss thing. I had to do something to get his attention again, I have never used those words before for I have never liked getting attention from anyone, I kinda just liked to sit quietly and pretend I didn't exist, but I'm tired of doing nothing about everything that happens in my life. It was time I started living and not just taking up space.

I stood up from my bed walked to the door very confident. I'm gonna go talk to that kian guy I told myself. I flung open my door and walked bravely across the small hall passed the kitchen where my mom looked at me with a smile. I reached the door i flung open that door Aswell and took a step outside..

Who am I kidding? I said to myself laying in my bed hugging my pillow. Of course right after I took that step outside my house I came right back to my bed. I couldn't do it. I tried but I-I just can't im not that type person that's confident and..Ya im just not.

Nicky left, im winding if Nicky will ever get tired of having me as a friend, I mean im not the most exciting friend someone could have. I tried pushing away those thoughts and grabbed my penny board and headed outside my house. Right in front of mi casa there was a little patio that had smooth floor which was perfect for skateboarding. I spent 15 minutes trying to Ollie but seeing that I was just not ready for any tricks I stopped and decided to go skate around the neighborhood. The neighborhood was lovely actually, I liked it. Definition of lovely for me is not a bunch of kids playing around and people walking their dogs or people sitting in their porch having a drink of lemonade, to me it meant a peaceful and quiet neighborhood with no kids or any kind of living thing walking around. My mind went back to kian, sometimes his and sounded familiar, I have never met anyone met kian before but it kinda just ringed a bell. I mean there's not a lot of people named kian that I know of. I stopped when I heard noises of cars and people talking, I had not noticed that I had gone to the part of my neighborhood where the people always went, there's was food stores clothe stores, and there it was, the camera store. A part of me wanted to walk right in and talk to him, but another part of me wanted to run as fast as I could back to my room. Ugh decisions, decisions I thought to myself, it's time to start facing my problems.

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Sorry guys I didn't publish anything in a long time )):
S/o to my friend lauren aka bipolarluke she writes amazing!
Much love -Sandra