Forgotten (Kian lawley fanfic)

One~ anxiety

Finally after asking so many times we are actually gonna do it. I can't believe it after all these year of pleading, we are really doing it. We are moving to California. Yeah it may seem stupid to get excited over this but to me it is glorious. I have been stuck in this house for so long I could make my way around with my eyes closed, we lived in Canada at the moment.

My mother was packing stuff getting ready to move, I should be doing the same but I had nothing in my room besides my laptop and clothes. "Why aren't you packing you know we only have 2 days right?" My brother was always bothering me bossing me around, thinking that I needed a babysitter to be telling me what to do.

"Yes I know I will be ready by then don't worry" I politely responded. After he left i shut the door softly and look around my room slowly ''wow I'm actually gonna miss this room'' I told myself quietly. Not that anything interesting happened in here to actually make any memories (if you know what I mean).

I grab my laptop and put it in its case which was black with pink polka dots, It was pretty old since the pink painting was coming off. Look around my floor and saw that there was clothes everywhere, I quickly start to pick each piece up and folding it. After around 2 hours I have folded all my clothing items and put them inside a small suitcase.

I Reach down under my bed and grab my penny board that was blue with white and pink wheels. Can never forget that, that was my second most favorite thing in the world. My first favorite thing was my dog, without Zoe I would probably die. I have never been in an airplane so I didn't know if they would let me take Zoe. I had heard my mom talking about it and said she was gonna pay extra money to take zoe, Totally worth it.Now I just have to wait 2 long days and I was out of here.

*next day*

I feel anxiety, because only now have i come to realize that once i get there i will stop being homeschooled and actually go to collage. Unless of course I wanted to be a hobo and not have a job.

I would probably have a panic attack the first day of collage. Yup i have anxiety, not as bad as some people but still bad. For example i would walk into a place with cute boys or just random strangers and I would just turn around and leave because i know if i go any further i will start freaking out, or i wont be able to breath. Anxiety has stopped me from doing so many thing. Like going to school for one, also going to parties, or doing anything risky, or sometimes not even risky just new.

"Are you ready?" I hear a voice say while knocking on my door. "Ya I'm pretty much done" I answer, I quickly open the door to find a happy smiling mum standing in front of me. "we are going to get our luggage in the car so it can be ready for tomorrow" she said, I hand her my one suitcase and then my laptop. She then left and I jump on my bed and curled up into a ball as I ussually do when I'm about to sleep.

*2hours later*

I open my eyes. look around my room, sat in the edge of my bed and stare at the wall for a couple minutes. Then after finally fully waking up I look at my clock and see that it is 7:53 pm. Well now I wasn't going to sleep at all anymore. I walk up to the light switch and turn the lights on. I realize that I have nothing to do now but to sit there and be on my phone. I grab my phone to call my friend Nicky, she's been like my only friend that actually gets me and is always been there for me.

Me-"Hey what's up"
Nicky-"Nothing much just listening to music and using my laptop"
Me-"oh well tomorrow is the day..I'm going to Los Angeles"
Nicky- "oh ya I wanted to talk to you-"
Me-"NO NO please don't make a big speech about how much you're gonna miss me and how you are gonna be a loner because you know that's not true"
Nicky-"haha no I was just gonna say that I'm coming"
Me-"what that's impossible how?!"
Nicky-"I'll explain to you tomorrow I'll be at your house at 7"
*hangs up*
Me-"but Nicky-"

She always hangs up on me before I can finish. I'm starting to feel it, the shortness of breath. I tell myself to be calm there's nothing to be afraid or nervous about but my brain has a mind of it's own (cx). Anxiety hitting up for no reason I've know Nicky for over 3 years and you could say we are best friends. Now I'll have to wait to see what this girl is up to.

Well I'm so sorry this chapter sucked so much, and its so short i will get better as time passes just bare with me. Please remember to vote and comment (:
-Sandra ❤️