learning to love again //phan//

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I can onky thank you guys so much for actually reading this story, and thank you so so much for commenting! It made me feel so happy, it means so much to me. Thank you. I hope that this chapter is as good as you hoped it would be
~chey
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The bell ending class seemed to come a lot quicker than Dan thought it would.

The bell was followed by people quickly packing up their things and shooting out of the room towards their next class, not even letting their new English teacher to say goodbye properly as the door was closed behind the last student.

"And I want that work finished by next class if you didn't already!" Mr Lester called out, and Dan held back a chuckle as the teacher groaned softly in response to the now quiet and empty classroom. Why did this teacher even try so hard?

Dan luckily had his next class in his room, so he didn't have to brave the halls and hope he didn't get a beating. The only downside was that he had maths for his next period, and the kids in this class despised him even more than the one in his English class. So hopefully it would go like any other class, they acted like he wasn't there.

"Dan? You do know it's time to go to your next class?" Dan's eyes slowly wondered up from his growing death note in the back of his English book. Why wouldn't this teacher give up? Dan knew that it was just an act and that Mr Lester didn't want anything to do with him, after all who would want to talk to the freak?

"I do sir, my next class is in here" Dan explained as he closed his English book, slipping it into his back and tugging out his maths, laying it out on the table as he once again sank back in his chair as he let some of his brown fringe fall in front his eyes, as they were still watching Mr Lester. The teacher was packing up his things from his pervious lesson and was ready to go, his laptop tucked under his arm as he stood at the door.

Mr Lester flashed the young man a smile, and Dan felt that weird feeling in his chest as he let his eyes quickly fall down to his closed book shyly. Why did that happen when he saw this guy smile? He couldn't lie and said they had made eye contact a couple of times in class while he was either finishing his work or just day dreaming, and Dan was always the first to look away with his stomach turning slightly.

'Don't let this guy trick you Dan, no one would ever want anything to do with you. He is lying, see that smile? Its sarcastic, no one could ever care like a useless shit like you. He is just taking pity on you'

Dan's mind reminded him and he felt the feeling in his chest die quickly, letting the numb feeling once again roll over his body. No, of course this teacher didn't care. So he pretended like he was never smiled at, and tried to forget that Mr Lester was ever kind to him, because it was probably just a sham, and the teacher would forget his name in the next class and he wouldn't be nice again. Yea, that's sort of what went on his life, people moved on and forgot him all the time. Dan was just used to it.

"Uh, well then I do hope that you have an enjoyable next class then Dan. Also, if those kids continue to make fun of you, you can tell someone you know. You can come straight to my office, my door will always be open" Mr Lester told him as he opened the door, still grinning at Dan.

'Oh Dan he is lying to you, he would never want to help, no one would ever want to help you. He would probably laugh at your problems and tell you to grow up. You don't want to burden him with your problems now do you? He doesn't deserve to have someone like you moping about their lives. You're going to die soon anyway, and this guy wouldn't even care'

Dan just nodded in reply as he continued to glance at his teacher from under his fringe. Why was this guy trying to be nice? It was giving him a headache, and he hated it when people lied to him. He wished he could trust the guy, but he hadn't really given him a reason to yet has he?