Late Night Thoughts

Day 2

Lately I have heard a lot of people say they love the Asian culture. Yea okay I'm an Asian so I'm happy. But I start thinking if their opinion is actually correct when they say "Asian parents are sooooo nice". Like yea they are great actors. Becuz when we have guests, they look so nice, warm and kind. And we kids behave so nice and well-mannered so you will think "yea they are so nice" . And honestly I understand. But when you aren't there asians parents are completely different. For instance...
I woke up one morning and looked in the mirror and my hair looked what Albert Einstein's hair looks like after surviving seven nuclear explosion. And I walk out and instead of "Good morning" my mom says "Don't go anywhere fix your hair you look like a ghost" and I'm like "damn bro take it easy I had a hard time sleeping last night" but I said it in my head cuz then my mom will probably ask "why can't you sleep? You do no work you. useless! ". I mean she isn't wrong when she asks me for help I literally just knock everything over and f*ck up so bad that she needs five times more help then she did before I "helped". But you know this not only makes me look like the worst child in my family but also gets me free unwanted taunts. Like thanks I didn't even f*ck up your house yet and you are already complaining I don't even know where you got the right from.
Mostly in get togethers the females and males sit in different compartments and this is how it is.

Female- Trash talking someone else and calling them a bad person while gossiping themselves knowing they'll pretend to be nice when they are present. And discussing how useless their children are.
This is why me and my friends don't let our moms meet cuz we will get insulted so bad right before our eyes in Punjabi we say "kuttay jaisy hona"

Male- talking about politics as if they were raised in the white house and know all the secrets.
And then there is the kids section. It's like the most f*cked up one. There will be a five year old sitting with a fifteen year old and a twelve year old and a seventeen year old. And now all of them have different aesthetics to make it even difficult. The 12 y/o will behave like they are 20 and 15 y/o will behave like they are 10. And the 17 y/o will be devastated cuz the 5 y/o is bothering them. It's a mess. And this is one of the many reasons I hate people. Well not a lot but it's like this, they ain't annoying and are nice to me and acts their age. They are amazing. But if they never stop talking, are irritating and act older than their age then they are dimwits.
My dad uses this logic too. He says the people that benefit us are amazing and evergreen and the ones that don't are purely useless and a disgrace to the world.
Irrelevant but there's this song I've been listening to since I was 3 and have loved it since. It has this one line that talks about how the girl doesn't shut up. And each time it comes on my dad sings it to my mom and they have a small argument and I sit there holding my head thinking this happens everytime but that in no way shall get in the way of me laughing. And that's just another normal day. No unusual acts.
But despite these things being normal for some reasons God is always trying to figure out how to out more problems into our family. It's so bad that we are used too to shit. But my mom said everytime God puts us through a problem it's to bring us closer to him so now in my mind I think "okay just bare with it God wants me to be closer to him 😊" now I won't show this emotion but trust me, it's like this.
Another thing I hate is when I am trying to listen to songs, save pictures of my idol someone will tell me "it's just a phase" like okay then why do you care? I'll delete it when I'm over it. Is it your problem? But you see this phase has been going on for well over two years and I am only getting deeper into it not getting bored. So maybe you're wrong 7500 year old aunt of mine.
Another thing I hate that my mom does is when she is in the phone with someone and I walk accidentally bump into something she will tell the person on the other side of the phone what I did. It's so embarrassing and then they will compare me to their daughter and call us the "same" like we're not. Kim Namjoon is also clumsy but that does not make us the "same" please compare us when we have more than 5 of the exact same talents. I'm calling being clumsy a talent cuz I heard it's hard to hurt yourself. It's really not people are just too sensitive. But there's one more thing they do that is so damn annoying. Everytime they don't want to talk to someone they hand the phone to us kids. And here's what we do as revenge-

Person- How are you?
Me- Good
Person- How's school?
Me- Good, you have wanna talk to mom?
Person- yea okay
Me- *Hands phone back to mom* They wants to talk to you.

See we are so smart but my mom thinks it's just rude to not want to talk to someone but like mate, people are so annoying and they only ask one question "How's school?" and what am I supposed to talk to them about. I will talk to my brother cuz he is my age fellow. We get each other but my mom isn't understanding this logic and calls me rude. But at this point I don't care cuz everyone already calls me rude already so it no longer matters to me at this point why care when they won't even listen. You know this is why you shouldn't care about what people say. It's simply useless.

Have a great day