Late Night Thoughts

Day 3

Guess who decided to forget this thing exists. Okay I guess, I lose interest in everything eventually. That really sucks you know. Everyone is always reminded me of the things I used to do, like I don't like it anymore, it was a "I'll do it for a few days" kinda thing you know. I ain't never gonna do it again. Okay I might do it again. I got back to this and it says I last wrote here March 15 2022 and today is April  20 2022.
I woke up this morning and decided to sleep again. I'm so smart.
See that's the thing, not to sound narcissistic but I'm really smart. All the people I know get up and decide to do stuff even when they wake up early. But I, on the other hand, I sleep again. Like it's my respected time to sleep, leave me alone. I know it's the middle of the day, but I sleep and wake up late, so at the end of the day I did sleep for the same amount of time as you did. Idk how long you slept for but,
You slept a lot: Lucky you be happy even if you were late.
You didn't sleep enough: it's fine sleep on the weekend ig, look forward to it and be happy.
You slept just enough: okay? Be happy. Nothings wrong.
Conclusion- Just be f*cking happy.

Anyway, it's hard to get people to be happy. Like yea life sucks, but be happy for a day at least, no one is dying. Unless you're at a funeral, then don't. Really no, wait! You can be happy at funeral, if someone you don't like died. Maybe you got their inheritance and got rid of an annoying person, win win. But don't show it, you don't wanna look like a terrible person. It's fine for me tho, by now I ruined my image so much that no matter what I do, everyone will probably just roll their eyes, there's nothing else, really. I sound like a spoiled person. Okay there is one thing and that's the classic legend of 👟. That's like the best way.
Now that's a little psychotic. it's not like that either. Bro I'm a weirdo just take that for that. Let's all not over think. I say that while being a part of the overthinker community. I try okay? But! all advice I give, is not something I will do, why? becuz..... I am unable to? or that I never even complained? eh I'm losing it now.
Changing topics. ya'll ever just wake up like "Damn I'm still alive". You know I wake up like that after I messed up something yesterday and was supposed to deal with it this morning. I know I should be grateful but, WHY SHOULD I BE Grateful WHEN I HAVE PROBLEMS IN MY LIFE THAT I CAUSED MYSELF IN MY CONCIOUS?
Yea anyway, I told my younger brother if he turned off the lights, I will speak to him later. I don't why he wants that since we don't really get along and he says stuff I don't get. And doesn't listen to me so what's really the point? But anyway, I was supposed to speak to him yesterday (according to him), at first I said "I never specified the time" but he really doesn't listen to a logical argument. then I said "My battery is at 30% and when it's 0% I'll call you and we can talk" he agreed to that (kind of he seemed pissed off but I was pissed of at your existence but you didn't disappear), and then my mom starts blaming my phone for it, so I called him back at 28% battery. He said now he wants to play? I said that was not the deal. And then he left without me asking him to. And my mom blamed me, like I didn't even do anything wrong? it all went with the deal okay? But how dare anyone listen to me. It's fine cuz in the end I didn't spend time with him anyway and that was because of his own fault. Stupid kid. You know someone really needs to explain this stuff to him. No one can teach him how to argue, curse and fight other than me but he doesn't listen to me. Your loss I guess. I mean I know all the rules okay child? I'll teach you.
He also thinks I should be a nice teacher cuz according to him (someone who nevee even went to school despite being 6 years old) teachers are nice. But I think teachers are only nice when you are respectful. And I have been to school a lot more than him. He doesn't be nice and as I result I don't be either and he is too stupid to get that.
God bless the teacher that will be stuck teaching him.
Anyway, I don't get teachers a lot anyway. I mean sometimes they'd ask you to do something and then change it. And blame you and say they never said that, like lady, accept your mistake. Like what kind of influence does that leave on your class? Never accept your mistake and deny deny deny like you killed someone? Yea okay done. I'm a pro at that.
NO WAIT! I'M A PRO AT DENYING NOT KILLING PEOPLE. Okay it was a misunderstanding.
Anyway, a lot of good music was released this year so far. It's the best part of the year so far. Everytjing else either went down hill or disappeared like it never even happened. So I have an attachment to music and everyone is always like "Stop listening to music" Like dude. Am I bothering you? No right, then what's the problem? Nothing. Obviously, you're just annoying bro.
Okay we all know how moms shut off a logical argument with "I'm your mom". Like I would be using science to backup my argument and she would be using the things old people say.
You know old people lose their shit and say whatever comes to mind and we have to listen cuz "Respect your elders" why? well idk.
I was listening to some comedian and he quite literally explained all of that.
[I couldn't find that clip again sorry].
Anyway.
What's up ya'll? How are you? How's life?
I'm clearly out of topics. Normally I start conversations by asking how they are and how's life but I didn't here?
I figured this whole thing maps out as if I was actually having a conversation with someone and the someone is mute? And I don't shut up, so I figured should ask these questions too.
I ask this stuff so much, that people start asking this stuff whom I speak to on daily basis. It's cute to me somehow.
Its the best feeling when you can clearly see that you have strong influence on someone and without any force or hard work. It's cuz you are their only friend. It's so awesome.
I love talking to introverts and putting them in groups and getting them to meet new people. Mainly they only talk on personal numbers, but that's fine too. I like trying.
BUT BRO INTROVERTS ALWAYS HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY ITS SO COOL.
I don't what's up with the sudden burst of energy.
Signing off for now.
Have a nice day