.+~Happiness within the Spark~+.

~You don't understand~

The school day had sadly ended, I was too scared to go home.. I didn't know what to do, My legs wont move, I really didn't want to go home.. Just outside the school gate I saw Izreal crossing the street, I ran up to him "WAIT UP! IZREAL WAAAIIITTT!!!" He finally stopped walking, I ran across the street, Cars had stopped already for other student so it wasn't a big deal, "Oh, Hi Xaine! What're you doing, Isn't your house that way-" I stood next to him "Yeah but.. I'm too scared to go home.. Y'know.." . . . "Oh.. Well you can  come with me to my house for a while if you'd like! Wait- Let me call my mom first to see if that's ok.." The spark shone again "Oh, Ok!" I was really happy to hear that, I was so excited! I don't think my parents would care.. (RING RING) "Hey, Mom! Uhh- I was wondering if Xaine could come over for a while..? Just so we can hang out" . . . "Oh.." . . . "Oh ok.." . . . "Ok, Thankyou mom! Bye, love you! Cya soon!" . . . "No mom, We'll walk" . . . "Yes I'm sure! It'll be fine!" . . . "Ok" . . . "Ok bye!" . . .

I didn't know if it was a yes or a no, I only heard half the conversation.. "So.. Can I come over..?" Izreal stared at me confused thinking that I heard the conversation, But I didn't- "Uh- Yes! You can!!" I smiled so big! "REALLY? YAY!!" We walked and talked about random things and telling each other jokes, Stopping to pet a kitty that walked by, And ran away from some bees.. There were a lot of flowers on the way home, Ok! And we were wearing blue uniform! It wasn't helping.. "Finally.. HOME!" I had never been to a friends house before.. His house was so big, neat and tidy! He had an adorable dog! It was Pomeranian! It scared me at first because I'd never seen her before so there was A LOT of barking.. But over time she got used to me! She was so soft and fluffy! Her name was Lolli, Interesting name for a not so sweet dog..

Time passed by quickly, Izreal and I mainly just played video games, It hit 5 O'clock and then suddenly my phone rang... It was my dad... I was too scared to pick up but I had too...
"Um.. Hey dad.." . . . "WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU!?" . . . "I'm at a friends house..." . . . "I DONT CARE! GET HOME NOW!" . . . "Ok.. I'm sorry..." . . . "THAT MEANS NOTHING! YOU CAN STARVE, NO FOOD FOR YOU TONIGHT!" . . . "But!-" (EEP) He hung up on me... "Sorry Izreal.. I've got to go..." I was scared and didn't want to move.. "Oh.. It's ok! I wish you well! If anything happens tell me, Ok?" That made me a little happier.. "I will, Bye..!" I waved as I went out the door and started walking home.

"WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!? THINKING YOU CAN JUST GO TO A FRIENDS HOUSE.. YOU'RE INSANE! YOU ARE TO COME STRAIGHT HOME NEXT TIME, YOU HEAR? IF YOU DONT THEN IM KICKING YOU OUT!" That's exactly what I expected to happen once I got home.. "Ok.. I'm sorr-" I was interrupted "NO! DON'T SAY SORRY, IT MEANS NOTHING COMING FROM YOU! A GAY IDIOT! NOBODY LIKES YOU! YOU SINNER!" I was kicked into my room.. "Fuck my life.. Fuck my family.. Fuck this house.. Fuck school.. FUCK EVERYTHING!" I had never been so angry before.. I wanted revenge on my dad.. He shouldn't be treating me this way- "WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU SAY? I DONT WANT TO HEAR YOU SAY THAT EVER AGAIN!" Shit.. My mom heard me.. "Mom.. You don't understand! Being gay isn't a sin.. It's ok to like the same sex!" That was my attempt at changing her mind.. "NO, YOU'RE WRONG! YOU FUCKING IDIOT!" She slammed the door.. I bursted into tears, Those tears turned into anger, I trashed my room, Then once I had realized what I did, My tears disappeared.. I felt better that I had let out my anger.. (BANG) My door suddenly flung open.. "WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO!? YOU BITCH!" I froze in fear "YOU LITTLE IDIOT! WHY THE FUCK DID YOU DO THIS!?

After minutes of abuse.. My dad left the room.. My nose was bleeding and I had bruises everywhere, My skin red from all the hits.. I was so exhausted and so in pain that I couldn't cry.