.+~Happiness within the Spark~+.

~Finally coming out of the closet~

"Oh come on you idiot.. You cant live in stress forever! Just come out already!... But what if they don't support..? It'll be fine! You're always living in your room anyway, What's the worst that could happen?.." And that's where I, Xaine, Was wrong, Something happened WAY WORSE than I expected..

"Mom! Dad! I've been... Meaning to tell you something.. For a while now actually!" I said that with excitement so my parents thought it was "good" news... But actually, I was really nervous! Nervous and excited at the same time...

"Oh! Well uh.. Yes? Sweetie? What is it, Sounds exciting!" My Mom said that with excitement in her voice.. It actually made me more scared..

"What is it son, Make it quick! I have work soon." My dad is a very busy and angry man.. I was used to his attitude at that point, It still manages to put me down though, Knowing he doesn't actually care that much just hurts.

"Well.. You see.. I- I'm.." I stuttered so much, I could feel the butterflies in my stomach from how nervous I was, I could hear my heartbeat, My ears started ringing, And before I knew it.. I shouted out.. "I'M GAY!" I didn't know I had said it, I just blurted it out! Everyone froze.. Even my sister! My sister looked.. Happy? Though.. "What.. The FUCK, Did you just say." I froze in shock, My heartbeat got louder as my dad stood up and walked toward me.. "You little fucking shit, You think THAT is ok!? WELL ITS NOT!" (BANG) ... My dad ... Just hit me... I got dizzy, I was scared, and nervous! I was shaking! My heart dropped at those words.. My dad has hit me tons before.. But that hit was different.. "Usually I would've defended you, Xaine, But this time you've really done it, Being gay, IS a sin! what'd you expect!? YOU DESERVED THAT SLAP!"

. . . Just then, I broke, Tears running down my face, The tears were hot.. It felt like my skin was burning, I was trying to hold back my weeps, But I couldn't, The tears turned into a breakdown... Today I found out my parents were Homophobic, And I no longer felt a need to do anything with my life.. IM A SINNER! IM DISGUSTING! I DONT DESERVE TO LIVE IN THIS CRUEL WORLD! "SHUT THE FUCK UP! YOU CANT JUST SAY YOU'RE GAY THEN CRY! STOP BEING GAY, ITS A SIN YOU SICK FUCK!" I couldn't hear my dad, I didn't want to hear him.. This all happened one shitty Sunday afternoon, For once, I was happy it were Sunday, I'll be able to get away from my parents.. Away from my dad.. Away from the abuse..