the gentleman's club (+18)

Humiliated

Jesse

It's been about 3 weeks where I've been thinking about a list of ways to get on Mr. Sidorov good side and make it up to him that I was sorry for what I did. I decided to talk to him after class and just give him a final apology.

I think he's pretty tired of me saying sorry, but I don't care. I want him to know how deeply I regret it because having a man who basically said that he didn't except misbehavior from you and you misbehaving is pretty fucking embarrassing.

Our class had finished and now was my chance. I slowly started to get my things together right when Mr. Sidorov dismissed the class, and after everyone was out I decided that this was it.

I slowly walk up to his desk while he's sitting back in his chair staring at me.

I would be lying if I said that this make me feel uncomfortable. His chin resting on his hand, his face showing emotion of tiredness and boredom, while his blue eyes stare at me while I'm walking towards him.

This emotion that I was feeling was certainly giving me embarrassment and a twisting feeling in my stomach. I felt like millions of eyes were staring at me.

"Hey sir is it okay if I talk to you?

"Well you're already doing that so what do you want."

I bit my tongue, trying to hold back from saying something disrespectful. I will never understand why he can't be nice for twenty seconds.

"I wanted to give you a formal apology, for what happened about talking to Alex. I just don't want you to think that I'm one of those students who tries to purposely break rules or want to get in trouble."

He just stares at me. Mr. Sidorov just stares at me without saying a word or doing anything.

"Was that all you needed to tell me?"

I was taken back by the answer. I expected him to say something along the lines of, "just forget about it." or "it already happened." But instead he just replied with an answer I didn't think he was going to say.

"I guess...yeah."

"If you really want to apologize Jesse, then I suggest you show me instead of telling me."

I stood there thinking.

What the hell does that mean.

"Sir how am I supposed to show you?"

"Come closer to me Jesse."

I started to get nervous, because over the past couple of weeks Mr. Sidorov has been acting strange.

Not the type of strange of a teacher annoying you or acting different because of a stressed week, but rather a teacher fucking hating you strange.

There would be times where he would roll his eyes any time I walked into class, and any time I wanted to use the restroom he would curse at me after class saying I was taking up the classes time.

Im scared at the fact of what he might say to me this time. Whether he's gonna cuss me out or give me some lecture he has before.

He's such a asshole. I seriously don't think his mother ever showed him enough love.

I'm finally standing in front of him, looking down at him sit in his chair. He suddenly stands up and I'm reaching his chest. Wildly uncomfortable I take some steps back as he then proceeds to walk closer, filing the space between us.

What in the hell is going on right now.

"Um Sir-"

"I want you to call me Levine when we're alone. I don't really like when you call me by my last name." he says in a annoyed tone.