Numb To Everything

~ Letting It Settle In ~

         The day after it all happened. The pain that you didn't know was going to happen but did. Nothing can ever easy that pain and this new path that is being created for you. This path is going to be full of high mountains to climb and calming streams to float down. Needing the support of the others is a huge need at this time. One that you might be losing a lot of people beside you as well as gaining the people that you didn't think you would actually have. It's hard to think that your life has now changed in away that you didn't think it would. Yet you know have to navigate a new road ahead of you that you may never make through. Not with that attitude though, cause I know that you can make it through and that you are stronger than people think you are. You are the only person that can decide for yourself now. You know what is good for you and what is bad for you.

        Letting it settle in is almost being in denial. Actually, it very well might be denial. It's hard to except what you have gone through and it will all seem like a dream. Like you are going to wake up from all of it and it will all be okay. Though you know that won't happen because it's all true. You won't ever wake up from this. This dream you think it is...isn't a dream but harsh reality. Even if you move passed it and when you move passed it. It will always be there right behind you haunting you little by little. Though the most important thing is; don't let it control your life. Your life is the most important thing that has been gifted to this planet. People need you even though you might not believe it. Though have some faith in the people around you. They know what they are talking about as well and they need you as well.