Love & Loss [DISCONTINUED for now]

Chapter 3

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Jay's p.o.v

That night I cried thinking about all the bad things I ever did. I killed and torchured good people. I was a waste of space. I was alone. An outcast.

I cried alone in bed. Iv been crying ever since I came back from my killing spree. But something made me stop, I heard my door starting to creak open. Quickly I grabbed my knife that I had on my bed stand for protection and held it to my chest.

I meen of course I had a knife next to me... I always did.

"Come on out who ever you are!" I yelled.

The door opened.

I held my breath, thinking it would be the monsters in my head that finally escaped and now we're trying to find me. You know that kind of thought. I waited for want seemed like forever.

Finally it came out and I jumped from the unexpected event.

"Meow"

"Damn it Mr.Bean! You know not to scare me!"

"Meow"

I was raging mad, my nostrils were flaring. I let out a long sigh and smiled.

"I cant be mad at you,"

But soon that smile was replaced with sobs.

"How can I stop myself from turning into that insane killing machine? What am I going to do Mr.Bean? Maybe the world would be better off if I never even existed"

I layed back in bed facing the wall and took off my mask to wipe my tears away.

While Jay was talking Mr.Bean jumped on the computer table and walked on Jay's laptop. While walking over the laptop he accidentally called Luke on Skype.

Luke's p.o.v

I woke up to a Skype call on my laptop. I opened my eyes only to be met by a big bright screen. God it was like staring into the sun. My eyes adjusted and saw that Jay was calling me. I smiled thinking that she wanted to talk to me. I clicked answer. As usual I was about to say "hey you" , but I heard crying. 'Was that Jay crying? Is she okay?'

"Maybe the world would be better if I never existed."

What she said broke my heart. If she was gone I don't know what I was going to do. She was the only person who I can act myself and not just some handsome face in a crowd. She always gave me this funny feeling in my stomach, like if there were butterfly's dancing around in there. It was a warm and fuzzy feeling.

I never heard her cry before and I was wishing that I never was going to hear it again. But I knowtist something, something that was out of place. There was a mask on the bed. 'Funny iv never seen that mask anywhere else but on her face.'

"Jay are you okay?"

I guess she got scared because she flinched. She grabbed her mask still facing the wall and put it on.

"Yes I'm fine"

"No you're not okay" I said

She turned around to look at me. What I saw is something I have never witnessed in my life. I saw two dull red puffy purple eyes, these were not the ones I always saw when I talked to her.

Soon there was just silence. I couldn't take it anymore.

I made a courageous decision and said,

"You're not fine I'm coming over I'll be there tomorrow." With that I ended the call.

I stared at the screen completely unaware to what I just did.

"Well I better get my plane ticket and start packing."

Jays p.o.v

"Jay are you okay?"

'That voice, I know who's that voice. It was Luke... Wait Luke heard me crying!!' I thought.

I jumped from being frightened, I was about to turn around but Remembered that I didn't have my mask on. I quickly put it on and looked at the screen.

"Yes I'm fine" trying my best not to make my voice crack.

"No you're not" he said.

He sounded worried. 'Why would he be worried?' After that there was just silence.

I was about to break the silence but Luke beat me to it.

"You're not fine, I'm coming over, I'll be there tomorrow."

Then he hung up before I could say not to come. I was left there staring at the screen and then ,playing in my head what just happened in the last few minutes made me start to panic.

"No he's coming here tomorrow! What am I going to do!? I don't want to hurt him... Mr.Bean why did you have to press buttons!"

More tears were now starting to come out of my eyes. It was a good thing my house was always clean only because I was never in the house. I made my way down stairs, went to the kitchen and opened my fridge. 'I need to go food shopping'

I went back to bed thinking, 'How am I going to keep myself from going insane?'

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