Love & Loss [DISCONTINUED for now]

Chapter 5

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Jay's P.o.v

We stood there in awkward silence, it wasn't a bad silence, it was more of a 'my crush just said hi to me- what should I say back' kind of silence. Both of us thinking of who was going to make the first move. I couldn't escape this spell I was in, I couldn't stop looking at his flawless face.

I wasn't in control of my body. I went up to him and hugged him. A bear hug to be exact, my face was buried in his neck. The smell of his collon was to die for. I wanted to stay in this position forever... But I knew something bad was going to happen if I stood like this for too long.

Just as I was about to let go, Luke held me. He was actually hugging me!

I jumped due to the fact that no one has hugged me since my mother hugged me before she told me to hide under the bed. I held back the tears that were trying to escape my eyes. This is what Iv needed these lonely years.

"Um Jay?" Luke said in confusion.

I opened my eyes, pulled back and looked at my shoes.

"Sorry" I chuckled "It's just-the first time in forever-since I've seen you." I said stuttering.

"It's fine, Iv been waiting to hug you for the longest time. Actually since the first day I saw you at the coffee shop, but I was to shy to ask for a hug when I had to leave for the airport." Luke said scratching the back of his neck.

Thank god for this mask, because I was turning fifty shades of red.

"Um...come on in"

"Thanks....... Thanks for letting me stay here.. Well I kind of invited myself" Luke chuckled

"It's fine, no problem at all, mi casa Es su casa."
"So for how long are you planning on staying here in New Jersey with me?" I asked while walking up the stairs to show him his room.

"I was thinking... Maybe... About a week?"

I didn't even look at him because I was leading him through the halls showing him all the rooms I had. Except the basement that is.

My eyes widen to find out that he'll be staying with me for a week! I could berly even control myself for a couple of hours before going crazy.

Panic was starting to get to me.

I opened a door just two doors in front of my room. I told him this was his room and to unpack and meet me downstairs for lunch. He agreed and I left him, Closing the door behind me.

I was smiling going down the stairs.

"So when can we kill him?"

"No you're not going to hurt him!"

"You can't tell me what to do, I do what I want to when I want to. Make you're happiness last because by the end of the day, he will be gone forever." Hissed the voice in my head.

I stopped at the end of the stairs, tears were now sliding on my face.

"It's okay my dear, it will all be over soon."

I fought with the voices in my head. I felt my skin Turing ice cold; that's the first sign of me trying to control myself. My eyes starting to turn dark purple; a completely different purple than my original eye color, and my mind was set on one thing and one thing only killing.

"The more you struggle the more pain it will cause you in the further."

I can't kill someone I love and that Meens so much to me.

I heard Luke's door open. I let myself get distracted by something so little I lost focus on trying to keep out the killer inside me but it wasn't enough.

Oh no... Iv turned.