It's complicated.

Chapter 5

•Desiree•

I was up at 6:00 am on a Saturday lost in my thoughts and emotions. I don't understand why I am always in my feelings or feeling some type of way. I am a very moody person and I can only take so much but I bottle everything in until I completely snap and that's probably why I sit and think a lot. I was stressed about school, family, & finding a job. My life was a wreck in my eyes. My mother and father would always argue over the simplest of things. I loved my daddy I really do but he makes dumb decisions at times and he can't own up to them like a real man should, he pushes it to the side until he fucks up again or until there's no other choice but to talk about it. My mom is a strong woman but for some reason with my dad she will be stern one minute but the next she won't care and it will all go back to the same way. School was ending in 6 months and I had no colleges in mind or no acceptance letters and I was stuck. I was interrupted when I got a text message.

Aaron😂👏: goodmorning lil nigga

I couldn't help but laugh because he was so stupid to me.

Desiree☺️😈: goodmorning ass , but why you up so early ?

Aaron😂👏: I just wake up early I love the morning. Why you up ?

Desiree☺️😈: early morning thoughts always wake me up and keep me up.

Aaron😂👏: wanna talk about it ? And plus I wanna chill with you.

Desiree☺️😈: naw I'll be good but you can I'm just chillen come later tho this way to early to chill 😂

Aaron😂👏: fse , I swear but Ima be over there around 1:00 sounds good ?

Desiree☺️😈: that's fine with me ass.

I sent him the address and struggled to get up. I got up and went to take a long and needed shower. I loved the shower it was the place where I could just be free. My mind always wonders when I'm in the shower. I would think about everything that made me happy or made me want to leave home and just be by myself. I spent a hour in the shower alone and got out to get ready. I put on some black leggings with a regular white t-shirt and some colorful socks I didn't wanna dress up. I put my hair in a cute bun and laid back on my bed. I wondered why he wanted to see me all of a sudden and why he was even thinking about me. People don't just randomly think they want to come see you.

Aaron😂👏: I'm outside . Open the door.

I got up and went downstairs and open the door for him. He smiled at me which made me feel a little weird but I smiled back. And let him in.

"Okay what we doing today , I was bored and I needed to do something" he said plopping in my couch.

"Nigga you just getting here and you already making demands" I said laughing

"Come on we not staying down here we gone be in my room " I said waving for him to get up.

"Oh so it's like that ..." He said with a smirk. I knew he wasn't serious so I just laughed at him

"Hell naw I just don't come down here and my bed is comfy" I shrugged we laid down watching movies until he broke the silence and asked me a question.

"How come I'm only meeting you until now ? and we went to the same school for 4 years but I never noticed you"

"I'm really not the type to meet new people unless they come to me I like to keep to myself and chill".

"I swear you look like the loud type that would be cool asl".

"I am but you have to get to that level with me , if i have only known you for a short period of time I won't tell you or show you my true self until I trust you that's just how I am with people". He looked at me and smiled " I knew there was a reason I liked you , you cool af" I laughed at his facial expression.
"Oh so you like me ?" I looked up at him with a smirk."Girl please you ugly " he said with a laugh.
"You too jackass" I said laughing but on the inside that shit hurt.We laughed and watched movies and talked about any and everything until it was 10pm. My parents came home at 2pm and they were cool with Aaron being there they trust me and they know me. They also got a long with him I was surprise because they don't like people either. We said our goodbyes and I went to go call Lynn I missed my Bestfriend and we usually don't go this long without talking. On the third ring she picked up sounding tired and hurt. I felt so bad so i told her I was coming over I got my keys and drove to her house as fast as I could. She wasn't far but I felt like she needed me. I parked in her drive way and go out I knocked on the door and waited until her mother answered. She looked at me with hate." What the hell do you want?" I knew Lynn's mom had a disease and sometimes she adores me and sometimes she didn't. "Hey mrs.davis I'm here for Lynn" I walked upstairs to her room and was heart broken at the sight of my bestfriend on her bed crying. I hated to see the people who were closets to me hurt. Lynn was a delicate person and very emotional. I didn't say a word I just got in the bed and held her as she cried. I tried to calm her down a little and it finally worked. "You wanna tell me what's up?" I waited for her to get all the tears out. "I'm sooo tired of my mom I'm a teenager acting as if I'm an adult. This is too stressful for me. I'm having headaches and pains from all the over thinking I'm doing and I'm sick of it." I listened as she vented to me and I wanted to cry for her, when she hurts I hurt. We're like sisters and i don't want anything to happen to her. " Lynn I know your hurting and if you need my help I'm a call away, I will always be there for you and you should know this from the playground to the graveyard remember that."

• 2 hours later •

I took Lynn with me to my house and we just chilled and watched Netflix and talked about any an everything. " So what did you do before I had a breakdown?" Lynn asked laughing. "I was chilling with your bestie " she looked at me confused " with who ? " "Aaron " I couldn't help but blush when I said that ion know why. "Oh so yall together now ?" "hell naw " "why you say it like that my bestie isn't bad " "I mean he's cool but he isn't really my type" "sure he isn't " we both looked at each other and laughed moments like this were amazing.