March 18, 2022
Friday
Dear Diary:
Wala kaming masyadong convo now shutangina. Busy kami pareho but I know what's my responsibility to him. Umabot ang gabi, akala ko magiging masaya na kami kasi online na siya.
"I love you" I send this in two times but I don't recieved any i love you too coming from him.
"Ayaw mo na ba kong kausap? Naiinis? Naiirita?" I sending that chat in a minute. I recieved his reply, when 31 minutes passed.
"Naiinis lang" tipid na reply niya, sungit ang bakla!
"Nag sasawa na ko sa ugali mo!" Sunod na reply niya. Napatulala lang ako sa phone ko habang binabasa at inintindi ang reply niya.
I send sorry to him but he ignore it. May regla nga! Nag tatampo talaga ko sakaniya because this is the first time na pinag overthink niya ko. FIRST TIME!
Until I saw his myday, may nakalagay pa na "Ang ganda pa ng mood ko kanina, tapos biglang... anxiety attacks me" ANXIETY? weee?
After I saw it, I chatted him immediately. I ask him if he's not feeling well. Sinabi ko pa na nandito lang ako kung inaataki siya ng depression o di kaya anxiety. Kaya pala bad mood because of his anxiety.
Wawa naman asawa ko :<
Iintindihin ko siya kasi, nakaya niya kong intindihin nung mga panahong depression hits me too.
I'm lucky to have him, I love him not only his good side but I love him. Kung sino siya.
"Intindihin mo yung taong nakaya kang intindihin simula pa nung una"
Yun lang good night
—gia tots
