we met in may
us three
or well there were four
one of them, she was toxic
she used us, so we left
legitimately
she threw us out of her house
so now it was just ud three
ever since that happened, she we were thrown out
we all hung out less
we all got our own problems
our own new friends
and i was the only one who lived far
so they got their friends without me
they still answer me on snapchat
like once a day
i think its just to have answered me
no more facetime calls
no more long trips to see them
my summer won't be bookes with them again this year
and i dont know if that should make me happy
they went to my confirmation
met all of my other friends
haven't seen them since
its been 6 months
it feels hopeless
its soon their turn to get confirmated
i know i wont be invited
it sucks
but is it for the best?
should i just block them on everything?
it will all feel so different now
what if we all aren't the same people:(
what if's fly around my head
i dont wanna ask them
they dont need to feel guilty
but if i dont get invited, its over
i can't deal with it anymore.
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Hi! this is a rant about the relationship that's been going on between my "bsfs" i don't call them that anymore, just close friends. They have gotten their new ones without me and i don't wanna annoy them so. Again i don't expect anyone to read this cuz it's just venting but i'm sorry if anyone reads this and feels the same, you can always message me if you want<3
Confirmation is a danish (mostly) christian tradition where 14 year olds (7 graders) will celebrate that they are becoming adults and doing so with a connection between god and them and also a party with relatives, it can also be celebrated without believing in god, then we call it a nonfirmation and then its "just" a party with relatives because we are now more adults
