"What happened" -Eburnean tommyinnit AU

Chapter 13- Faking it

TW: Mentions of derealization, death, and abuse. 
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As phil came back, and sat with the group. They all told stories of themselves when times were easier to get by.  What nobody noticed, was that ranboo had been very silent. He felt that something bad was going to happen. He was paranoid, afraid that the family would be ripped apart again, knowing that they were all so fragile and could be torn any minute by the smallest things. But tubbo would help fix it right? Tubbo was strong and could never back down from something that tears apart his family, he would try to fix it. Ranboo was stuck deep in thought, just contemplating smaller things, things that could happen, things that would never happen. It was a loop of paranoia. "You okay mate?" Phil said, Ranboo realized he had been staring at Tubbo for a while, and that the others looked worried. "Yeah i'm alright, i'm just tired" Ranboo responded to the avian man. "Same here boos man" said Tubbo. "Well, we should all head to bed anyways. I have a few cots you can all sleep on" said phil, standing up and walking towards the ladder to the basement. A few minutes later he came back with cots in different colors, Each person chose theirs ranboo picked black, Tubbo chose green and tommy was handed red by default. Micheal would sleep with tubbo tonight, since he was so small he didnt need his own. And techno had a room in the cottage, so it was just tubbo and the other 3 in the living room. Everyone was so tired from the events of today. They all slowly drifted off to sleep

2:00 AM. Tommy opened his eyes, a nightmare again, but with no way of expressing it. Tommy stood up, he needed a walk, nothing felt real to him anymore. He had been feeling empty since Tubbo found him. He wrote a note just in case anyone woke up it read "Be back soon. Took a walk. Love you -Tommy" The words looked like they were written by a kid, Tommy didn't exactly have the neatest writing style, but it was still readable none the less. Although Tommy couldn't express his emotions through words or facial expressions, He was still human. At least,as human as one can be after dying. He still had thoughts, he could still breathe, just like a human. But Tommy never felt human, not even after dying the first time in prison. He felt like nothing around him was real, everything was fake, HE was fake. Tommy left the home, the cold air hitting his skin, he could feel it, but it doesn't make it feel any more real than it already feels. Tommy wished that he could feel REAL again, he wished he could feel ALIVE. But that day would never come, Tommy had seen Limbo all to many times to ever regain his sanity again. He felt like glass, everyone always treating him like he could break any minute. Everyone knew Tommy was fragile, even before his first death, but he never liked to admit it. He didn't want to be weak, but thats all he felt like when people showed their pity towards him. God he hates pity hes just a kid, he knows this but never thought about it until now, he fought like an adult to win the respect of others. The respect of Wilbur, even. But under all that he was just a child. A child who had not only started many wars, but had also experienced death more than once. Not many people could say they died more than once. I guess that's where Tommy is different from everyone, but all he wants is to be seen as normal again. 

Tommy doesnt know how long he's been out. Nor does he care, he just wants to keep walking until his legs give out. He can see the sun rising, butterflies will be out soon. He hates butterflies, they always land on him reminding him that hes just a walking corpse. He looks around to see hes not in the familiar snow biome anymore, instead hes surrounded by trees. He must be lost, but he doesnt seem to care. "there you are" a voice says behind him. He turns to see a green man with dirty blonde hair. "Tommy, tommy, i knew you would come back." tommy doesnt respond. He knew he would die, then be revived, but he just wanted to get it over with. He knew it would happen sooner or later, dream isnt an idiot, he seemed to know where tommy was every time he tried to hide. There was no use running anymore, so the ivory hair boy walked towards the dirty blonde, accepting his fate. dream had lifted the ivory boy up by his shirt but Tommy had no reaction to the sudden action. No begging, no crying, not even a flinch. "Oh, Tommy, quit the act your not fooling anyone." Dream said as he threw him to the ground. Tommy heard someone yelling his name, as if they were searching for him. "TOMMY" Tubbo yelled rushing to tommys aid in a panic. "What, scared that your little friend is hurt?" dream said letting out a laugh. Tubbo looked at dream with pure anger, then he looked over to tommy remembering the boy might be in pain. "Tommy are you ok?" Tubbo asked in a concerned tone. "Oh tubbo, dont tell me you believe him" Dream said looking down on the two younger boys "Hes clearly faking it" Dream looked at tommy, analyzing his face. Still no reaction. Nothing at all, not even a word from the ivory boy. Tommys pupils were small, and stayed in the same place they were always in. It hit dream like a train, he really broke the boy. And those eyes, those emotionless eyes, would haunt him forever. dream backed up, Tubbo stood "where do you think your going" Tubbo asked in an angered voice. The green clothed man ran off into the woods.

Tubbo didnt bother chasing him, because he would surely be dead next time he saw dream.
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This chapter was based on blublu_bys video on YT. She had mentioned in the pinned comment that it was cannon to the AU. The video can be found at https://youtu.be/skF04dH4a5M
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