"What happened" -Eburnean tommyinnit AU

Chapter 14- The calm before the storm

TW: Suicide, Derealization, Flashbacks, Hallucinations
This chapter is gonna be a lil weird, it goes into depth on Tommys thoughts. other than that, i hope you enjoy ^^ hope you enjoy <3
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Tubbo sighed, and picked up Tommy gently, as if he was scared to hurt the boy. It was cold, tubbo was used to the cold because he had been in snowchester for awhile, but something was different about this cold. Tubbo felt terrible he wasnt there to defend Tommy but he was still glad nothing had happened to the boy. The crunching of snow could be heard every step the brunette took, that was the only sound that was heard on the way back to phil and Technos home. Before tubbo left he got a good glimpse of Technos face, guilt. All he could see was a guilty face. Tubbo had never forgiven the piglin hybrid for what happened to l'manburg nor for when he let dream escape. He had done so many things wrong and it would take ages for him to redeem himself. Tubbo could see the lights of the home in the distance, thank god. 

The two boys arrived at the home, the brunette set tommy down lightly on the sofa. Tubbo sat in front of tommy, examining for wounds. There was only a bruise on tommys side, probably from him being thrown down by dream. After tubbo made sure tommy was ok, the ivory haired boy left the room to use the restroom. When tommy had entered the restroom the smell of lemon and lavender had reached his nose. Phil always kept the bathroom nice. Tommy closed the door and locked it. Then, he turned to the mirror to see himself. His hair was growing quite long, being near his shoulders. He always kept it up in a ponytail so it would never block his vision. His hair, it was so white. It only reminded him that he died, that he wasnt alive. Was he alive now? He felt dead. Unreal. Like he was in a dream. He always hated the word dream, it always reminded him of the man who had brutally murdered him over, and over, and over again. Tommy felt powerless, like he couldnt do anything anymore and all he is made for is to be killed and revived countess amounts of times. He felt like a toy, an object for dream to torment. "Tommy.." he heard a voice that sounded like dreams call to him. "Tommy put your items in the pit." Tommy wanted to scream, he wanted to cry, he wanted to just say something, anything. But he couldnt. "Im going to kill you, then revive you, then kill you, then revive you.." Tommy fell to the ground, still unable to express the pain he felt. He looked up to see the green man, standing above him. "Your my best friend tommy, and i'll never let you leave" The man dissapeared, tom thought he was going crazy. He didnt even want to be alive anymore, he didnt even want to live in suffering. He just wanted to be dead, gone, away. ANYTHING to make the pain stop.

Tubbo had noticed Tommy was gone for a while, he went up to the door and knocked. "Toms? can you knock on the door if your okay in there?" A knock could be heard from the other side. Tubbo let out a sigh of relief. "Okay bossman, knock again if you need anything." Tubbo walked away from the door, giving tommy his space. He cared about tommy, he really did. But he couldnt always huddle over the poor boy. He needed time, too. And besides, tubbo had a child to take care of, a child who needed him. Tubbo went to sit down on the sofa. A few minutes later, Tommy had exited the bathroom. He still felt like shit, he needed a nap. Tommy went to sit down with tubbo. As the brunette started talking, Tommy had started to space out. He saw what he thought was dream at the window across from them. He saw dream with an axe. Tommy grabbed his notepad, he couldnt find his pen, fuck where was his pen,  thoughts screamed at tommy angrily. Tubbo put his hand on toms shoulder "Oh! Heres the pen, sorry i had to give it to ranboo for his journal." He gave the pen to the ivory boy. Toms wrote quickly, his handwriting didnt matter now was not the time to waste on the neatness of it. He wrote "OUTSIDE LOOK OUTSIDE"  And showed it to Tubbo. The two went outside and looked around but saw nothing. "Is everything ok toms? I dont see anything out here" Toms scribbled a response "Nevermind"
Tommy didnt want to worry the boy anymore than he already has, he felt bad for even mentioning it at all. 

They both went inside, tubbo and tommy sat down beside eachother. Tommy eventually layed on tubbos lap, as the brunette played with tommys hair. His thoughts had calmed, he felt safe, he felt happy. He shut his eyes, and drifted off to sleep.