To The Love Of My Life... I Love You

Chapter One

"Dear Ben

our son and daughter were born yesterday, March 20th 1951. we had twins baby, can you believe it! Clara Megan and Oscar Daniel are doing amazing, god I wish you were here to see them. they look so much like you Ben. I'm adding a picture for you of them, they're so gorgeous baby I can't believe it! Daniel delivered them, and they were born in our bed, it was perfect baby. I wish you could have been there, but we'll have more kids.

Clara looks a lot like you and your mom, thats why I named her Clara, and Oscar looks a little more like my dad so I named him Oscar. I know you will love them as much as I do. I can't wait for you to meet them, I cried when they were born, I thought I was going to die when I was giving birth, it hurt so fucking bad babe. you really have no fucking clue of what kind of pain it is to give birth.

well, I have to go know Ben, Clara is crying and I don't want to keep her waiting.

I love you Ben and I can't wait to see you again

Love
Nicky
xooxoxoxooxox"

Hawkeye cried while reading that letter, like full blown ugly crying and he couldn't stop, he wasn't their for Nicholas when he needed him most, and he wasn't there when Clara and Oscar were born, he felt like he had failed his kids. he was scared this was going to happen, and now that this was happening he doubted that he would never be able to forgive himself, worst of all, he was scared that his kids would never forgive him, that would kill him inside. it was only a small comfort know that his dad was the one who delivered them, it was an even bigger comfort knowing that they were born in his and Nicholas's bed.

"Hawk are you ok?" BJ asked concerned when he came into the swamp and saw Hawkeye crying. he quickley hid the picture of Clara and Oscar and the letter under his pillow, "I got a letter from my dad... I miss him so much," Hawkeye said sniffling, BJ gave him the 'I know your bullshitting me' look. but he didn't push the matter. Hawkeye just took out a note pad and pen to write Nicholas back.

"Darling Nicky

I'm thinking about going AWOL, they are the most beautiful people I have ever seen, I hope I'm home before they get to old to be pissed I wasn't there for a lot of things. I cried while reading your letter, I'm so happy that they were born in our bed and that dad delivered them.

Clara and Oscar are going to be so spoiled by their Aunts and Uncles here at MASH 4077th, they don't know yet, I don't know how to tell them, but I know they'll be in love with Claire and Ozzy as much as I do.

remember baby, your the first thing I think about at night, the first thing I think about at night, and the only thing I think about in the officers club. I love you Nicholas James Dalaney and I love our kids.

I am counting the days until I can hold them in my arms and tell them that their Daddy loves them so so much. but until then, give them a kiss and hug for me and tell them that I'm doing all I can to get home to them before they start school

I have to go now Nicky,

I love you and Clara and Oscar

Love as always
Ben "Hawkeye" Pierce