Love and War-Jaywon Ff

Chapter 18

Jungwon with dogs in en o clock was so cute<3 I have never seen a cat pet a dog.

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Jungwon sighed as he looked at the distant trees from his bedroom balcony,the clouds were tainted white that looked gorgeous with the light blue sky.

" What are you sighing about?" Jay asked Jungwon, who was busy admiring the view.

"I just think I hurt someone..when I didn't mean to." He disclosed his problems,starting to open up to his fiancè.

"Who did you hurt?" Jay inquired, curious about who was occupying the thoughts of his beloved. Jungwon let out yet another deep sigh before speaking. " It's..uhm your workers?"  He spoke,not wanting Jay to find out he was talking to Niki.

Jay followed Jungwon with sighs. " It's Niki,right..?" Jay spoke softly,having disappointment in his cool voice.

Jungwon took a second staring at Jay whom had droopy eyes that filled them sadness. He would lie to me. Was what it seemed like he was thinking.

" You know he's an aristocrat don't you?"  Jay simply nodded giving a small fake smile.

Jungwon groaned,pulling his hair in frustration. God I'm such a jerk, He's the one I should be honest with and I fail to do just that,great Jungwon. He thought.

Jay just stood there,leaning on the balcony railing, rubbing his foot on the floor, avoiding Jungwon's upset gaze.

" I'm sorry Jay.." Jungwon spoke with crack in his voice.  "I'm sorry I'm not honest." Jungwon opened to Jay who was just stood there,ready to listen.

"I know Niki...I mean Riki, I met him back at the gala and things happened..! And I feel close to you and I just didn't want to drift away from you...!" Jungwon explained as best as he could,even though his thoughts were in rambles and he couldn't think properly.

"I'm sorry,I didnt think I'd see him again and I thought that if I ignored it...,It would just go away."

Jay glanced at Jungwon,furrowing his eyebrows,upset about what he just heard.Not because he was angry or enraged,but because he couldn't stand them arguing and how upset Jungwon looked.

Jay pulled Jungwon in and embrace, calming him down with his soothing touch.

"Jungwon, It's okay." He calmed him down,assuring him his forgiveness.

Jungwon couldn't help but look sad as he hugged Jay. Even if Jay forgave him,he couldn't forgive himself.

This made Jay look equally as upset,until he couldn't take it anymore.

"Jungwon!!" He yelled,as he pulled Jungwon out of his embrace,looking at him directly in the eyes.

"Just stop.! Forgive yourself please,for me." He spoke with a low voice that cracked every word he uttered.

"I love you okay.? One lie wont change that." Jay said softly. "Just dont lie to me again." He added. Two people who love eachother shouldn't lie and open up,even if its hard.

This made Jungwon shed a tear, not expecting to be forgiven nor even feel this loved before. He always thought and always lived thinking that he had to satisfy people in order to receive love,so hearing this gave a cozy feeling.

"Thankyou." Was all Jungwon could say,afraid that if he spoke further he'd cry a whole waterfall of tears.

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"Why hasn't Niki reported back.?!" Yelled Hyunjin,as he threw the documents that were on his table in frustration.

"Son,calm down he'll come around,he knows whats at stake afterall." Bellowed Duke Hwang,his father.