Hailee Steinfeld Oneshots

Panic attack (fem reader)

Summary: Y/N gets a panic attack because of the thought of going out and be between a big crowd of people, when Hailee comes home she comforts Y/N and they stay in the night.

TW: Panic attacks

Y/N's POV

I'm at home, sitting on the couch, shaking, crying, hardly breathing and feeling dizzy, waiting for Hailee to come Home. we want to go on a date at a cute little restaurant later but the thought of the paparazzies taking photos, asking stupid questions and trying to drag us in a corner to get answers, the many people that will be there, the stalker, all the talking about her and I.. It's driving my crazy. I can't think of anything else... I really want to go there with her but my mental state says no. I feel bad that I have to tell her I can't go out because i'm in a really bad down phase right now and it just keep getting worse. I haven't told Hailee yet but I need to. She always wants to know when i'm in a bad state so I hope she's going to be here very soon.

After about 5 Minutes I heard the door open and close again "Baby, i'm back" she said clearly happy and excited. I couldn't answer her because the breathing gets harder and harder with every breath I take. My leg was bouncing up and down, my hands were sweaty and my head starts to hurt when I saw Hailee in the corner of my eye. "baby?" she was confused and came up to me, sat down on the floor, in front of me and took my hands. "baby? What's wrong?" she asked clearly worried. "I- I can't uh... breath... I uhm feel dizzy.." I said very quiet. "Okay Babygirl, try to breath with me okay? Everything's gonna be fine don't worry. I'm right here.'' Hailee said "I'm gonna count to three and then we're gonna take a deep breath together okay?" I nodded "One, Two... and three" I took a deep breath and Hailee smiled at me. "Good, now repeat it two times okay?" I took a deep breath two times and looked down on my hands. "Good girl, now what do you want to do? Cuddle? Kisses? Powernap?" Hailee asked and booped my nose with her finger. "Cuddle..." I said shyly. "Okay come here" Hailee said after she laid down on the couch. I laid my head on her chest and burried my face in her neck. "you're in a bad state now?" she asked and I nodded. ''why didn't you told me Baby?" I just shrugged with my shoulders. "You know you can tell me everything right?" she asked and I nodded my head again. "So, do you want to tell we what the reason for the Panicattack was?" she asked calmly and rubbed my back with her hand.

I started to cry again and sobbed into Hailees neck. It's literally so embarrassing to cry over this but I can't help it. "Baby, you don't need to cry... everything is fine. Is it something about your mental health?" she asked "yeah..." I said and nodded. "it's going to be okay" Hailee whispered in my ear and kissed my head. "Don't be mad at me please" I said quietly. "Mad? Why should I be mad if it's something about your mental health my love?" I shrugged my shoulders again. "Okay, do you want to tell me what happened?" Hailee asked and I sat up so I straddled her. She took my hands in hers and sat up with me. I laid my hands around her neck and her hands were on my thighs. ''I... uhm... I don't want to go to this restaurant today... I'm scared of all the stupid Questions from the paparazzies or all the looks and uhm... all the gossip about you and me, the crowd of people that's going to be there... it's just to much for me." I said and looked down.

"Hey, baby look at me" Hailee said and lift my head with her hand. "It's okay, I understand this. There's no need to go out. We can stay at home and watch a move and cook together or we can get Takeout if you want. We can go on a date in a restaurant when you feel better." Hailee said and smiled at me. I looked at her Lips, and back up to her Eyes. Then I leaned in and kissed her softly. I feel her smiling into the kiss. After we pulled away she looked me in the eyes. "Do you feel better now?" She asked "Much Better" I said hugging her, burring my face in her neck and give her light kisses. "I love you" I mumbled "I love you" Hailee said back, scratching my head with her hands and rub my back with the other one.

It's a draft i wanted to post for some time now, but never had the time to proof read it, now i did, and i like it. :)

i know panic attacks are not always like that. they are different for everyone but the panic attacks i get from time to time are like that so please be careful with what you say, thank you.