Hailee Steinfeld Oneshots

The Letter. (Fem reader)

This chapter mentions suicide and some other things that might triggers you Guys.

Summary: Hailee finds goodbye letter from Y/N and talked about it when Y/N comforts Hailee about it.

Fluff.

Y/N's POV:

i don't know why i'm doing this, but it just feels right.
i'm sitting on my desk, crying and writing. it feels wrong and right at the same time but i have no idea if it's actually right to do it.
I'm waiting for hailee to come home and just feel safe. but before she comes home, i need to shower so she can't see that i cried. i fold the paper and hide it in my closet when i heard the front door open. i rushed to the bathroom and quickly turend on the shower. "babe i'm home" hailee yelled and came upstairs. "i'm under the shower, i'll be with you in 15 minutes" i said and start to shower.

6 months later.

Hailee's POV

i was cleaning up our closet, throwing old stuff away, put some new clothes in and all this.
when i pulled on a hoodie, a letter fell down, i was confused but it was a two page long thing abd i recognized the writing, it was from my beloved girlfriend. i couldn't fight myself but sat down on the bed and start to read.

Hey Haiz,
i know you're probably wondering what this is, i just want to let you know that i love you with my whole heart and i'll ever do.
Please don't be mad at me when you read this.

i just can't do all this anymore.
it's all to much, the Hate, the death threads, my mental health, the all time arguing with my family.
i just can't handle that anymore.
you know how i felt lately and it's all getting so much more worse.

the Panic attacks, the anxiety, just everything.

i feel like i'm not enough for you, you can do so much better than a broken, mental ill and whatsoever girlfriend like me.
you deserve someone who shows you the affection you need and not like me...

we are dating for almost a year and a half, and i feel terrible that i can't say you in the face how much i love you and how much my love for you just grows with every day i see you.

you are my little light at the end of a tunnle that i'll never arive because there's no hope for me anymore. i'm just so broken and these sort of things. i can't do it anymore.

i'm sitting here, crying right now while i write this.

i hope you never have to see this letter, but if you do, i'll tell you. i loved you yesterday, i love you today and i'll love you tomorrow.

i'll love you forever. even in the Afterlife.

you will always have my heart.

just be strong and show the world how amazing you are.

Y/N....♡

P.S.: I love you so, so, so, so much my love. never forgett that ♡♡

so this is the kind of letter i found right now... a good bye letter from my girlfriend who's currently sitting downstairs, watching TV with our two little dogs.

i just realised by now, that i started crying while i read this. I need to go downstairs and talk with her...

Y/N's POV

i sat on the couch and scrolled through my phone while i watched TV with the two doggos next to me when Hailee came downstairs.

"Baby?" she said quietly, i could hear that she cried.
"hey Haiz, ever,thing okay love? why are you crying?" i asked and opend my arms for her so she can sit in my lap. she snuggled up to me and cried more and more. Her face was burried in my Neck while i stroke her Back and try to calm her down. "please don't do it..." she said quietly "do what?" i asked confused. "uhm... kill yourself...." she whispered so quietly i could barely hear it. I thought about what she was doing that this came to her mind when i rememberd that she wanted to clean the Closet. She might have found the letter... shoot...

"hey, baby, look at me. i'll never do that, i know you found that letter, and it's okay that you read it. But trust me, i feel much better than half a year ago, you don't need to cry, i know it hurts to read how i felt like 6 moths ago. But look at me. i'm i such a good state. i recovered from my ED, i stopped hurting myself in any way, i'm getting better Hailee, because of you. I remember one thing i wrote. You are the light at the end of a tunnle. And see where i am, i came out of that tunnle. I'm right here and i'll never leave you.
i'm now gonna say something, i never said to you in these two years. I love you. with all of my heart. i'll love you forever and always. i'm always gonna be here. i promise."

i just said those three words for the first time.
i started crying and hailee looked me in the eyes.
"i love you y/n" hailee said and kissed me. i tasted the salty tears of us and held her close. "throw that letter away. i'll never need this. i have you. the light in my life when it's about to turn dark again."

and with that, hailee threw the Letter away, came back, snugglet up to me and fell asleep a few moments after she laid down and not soon after, i drifted of to sleep, with my girlfriend in my arms and couldn't be happier.

had this in my drafts for like 3 months now oop...

yeah ik, kinda different, but i wanted to publish it.