Time before Death

"Lilian"

'I never wanted to die'

Is what I had hoped to say,
I'm sorry mom and dad...

But life led me astray.
Looking back I wish I could've stayed atleast one more day.

I miss the scent of stone brick walls,
That one elderly couple yelling in the halls.

I envy them, looking back.
I wished I could've grown old maybe even bitter.

It would be better,
Than being a quitter.

I wished I had the courage, to ask her out...

I was scared of the stares, I would've gotten if I went that route.

I watch her even now.
She's happily married, has kids of her own.

'Sammy, I'm happy for you.
I really am, though I atone...

I'm sorry of leaving when you needed me the most."

"I'm sorry for leaving you alone"

Theres alot of things, I wished to say.

But my times up.

My name's Lilian, I hope you stay.