Joah

Even more secrets ?

James' pov
Me and jude walk back into Noah's hospital room,i sit down where jude was sat and i look at his heart beat.he's pale so so pale! I kiss his hand, the doctor walks in "if he is going to wake up he should wake up by tonight"the doctor says and i watch his chest rise and fall over and over again but for whatever reason I can't just can't take my eyes off of it.it's like my mind is says that if I take my eyes off of his chest he will stop breathing.i wish I had looked into those deep hazel eyes one more time or just hugged him more.

Richelle's POV
I can't lose Noah!i love him more than anyone else he's my only best friend and if I lose him I lose everything important to me!i notice tears slip from Jude's eyes and i walk over and i hug her. Little did james know that recently noah had been diagnosed with two disorders! Both might stop him from dancing and now this! I don't want to lose noah he's my favourite person in this world. The doctor walks back in "we need to turn off the ventilator to see if he can breathe for himself "NO"i shout as i jump forwards but Nicole stops me and i break down sobbing into her chest, the doctor unplugs the ventilator but it shocked us when we hear Noah's heart rate machine still beeping "it looks like he will wake up soon"the doctor says and i feel a weight being lifted off of my shoulders "but you all need to leave now"the doctor says "hey richelle and jams can you stay here so I can put jude to bed please?"nicole asks "yeah of course"me and james say at the same time and jacquie kisses me before she leaves with everyone else. I look at james who is still staring at Noah's chest,i walk over to him "hey he's going to be okay"i say pulling james' head towards me as I pull him into a hug but james still doesn't His eyes off of Noah,so I stand infront of him and he pulls me out of the way and i end up falling into his lap "james he's okay"i say looking at james who's normally care free so it's weird seeing him so worried. "Look at me"i say harshly and he looks at me "he is okay"i say softly and he nods "now I'm going to grab us drinks"i say standing up

James' pov
When richelle leaves my eyes begin to close but I'm fighting to keep them open,just as I'm about to drift off i hear the bed sheet move,my eyes shoot open,to see noah awake "hey baby"i say "hmm hey babe"noah says about to sit up "no! You got stabbed remember"i say and he smiles at my concern "I know I was just making myself comfortable"noah says "okay baby"i say "am I aloud a kiss or no?"noah asks "of course"i say as I stand up and I bend over him and i give him a small kiss on the lips. "So where's everyone else?"noah asks "well they all had to go home plus your mum needed to put jude to bed"i say and his face drop "jude,is she okay?"Noah asks "yeah yeah she's fine baby"i say softly and richelle walks in "noah!"she mutter and she runs over and hugs him "I missed you" richelle whispers "I missed you too rich"noah says "you know how worried we were?"richelle says. "I'm sorry"noah says "well your okay now baby so it's okay"i say softly and he smiles at me "ah noah your awake would you like to go home?"the doctor "yeah I would"noah says "right I'll get you a wheelchair"the doctor says leaving "how you feeling?"i ask "my side kills baby"noah says.i give him a kiss and I feel him smile before he kisses me back. The doctor comes into the room with a wheelchair,the doctor goes to help him but Noah refuses help like always! Noah uses his hands to lift himself up and he puts himself into the wheelchair "your so stubborn"i say "I learnt it from her"noah says and richelle smiles proudly. Richelle wheels noah out of the room,we wheel him out of the hospital and,he manages to get himself in my car "you can ask for help you know?"i ask "I don't need it baby"noah says making me smile. I drive richelle home and then I drive to Noah's house "you need help?"i ask and he nods and i open the door and i help him get into the wheelchair,i wheel him into his house. But he freezes as we walk in "hey you okay?"his mum asks and he wheels himself towards the sofa and he moves himself on to the sofa "hey baby"i say softly as I walk over to him "hey baby"he replies and i sit down next to him "how you feeling?"i ask "good"noah says "I want cuddles"noah says and I lay down and he lays down "careful"i say "I am baby"noah says as he puts his hand in my chest "can I know the secret?"i ask and he tenses "I guess so"noah says standing up and walking over to his bag and he pulls out a file,walks over to me and hands it to me

Noah erlick formally diagnosed with boarder line personality disorder

I look at him and he doesn't dare to look me in the eyes "hey look at me"i say and he turns to me "just because you've got bpd doesn't mean I'll love you any less"i say putting my hand on his cheek "do the school know?"i ask and he shakes his head "you need to tell them because if you fall asleep you could get into trouble baby"i say and he nods

I lay back down and he lays down with his hand on my chest,i play with his hair and i hear his soft snores,i carry him up the stairs and i lay him on his stomach so I can clean his wound,i grab a wipe and i begin to clean it. I lay down and noah kisses my cheek as I turn to him.

The next morning-james' pov
I wake up and I grab one of Noah's tops "babe wake up I have to leave for school"i say and he sits up slowly "ow"noah mumbles thinking I can't hear him. He grabs his phone and he texts someone before standing up,i take of my top when i feel warm muscular arms wrap around my waist. I feel myself smile,i kiss him "have fun at school baby?"Noah says "thank you baby"I say before leaving.

Noah's pov
I walk downstairs after jude and my mum leave. I lay down on the sofa when the doorbell rings,i stand up and i walk over to see piper standing there with and shopping bag "you okay pipes?"i ask "yeah I thought you could do with company"piper says and i let her in. "So why aren't you in school today?"i ask "I had a panic attack earlier so my mum kept me home and stuff so I thought I would come over"piper says "oh I'm sorry"I say "it's okay how's so you?"Piper asks "I'm good" i say sitting down carefully trying not to cause myself to much pain. "So can I know this secret?"piper asks looking at me "yeah I guess so i umm have bpd"i say and piper smiles "you had me thinking you were cheating on james"piper says in relief but little did she know that's not the biggest secret i have! Miss Kate walks in "hey Noah how you feeling?"miss kate asks "yeah I'm good umm can we talk about the thing?"I ask standing up "not right now how about later?"kate asks and i nod

James' pov
I hate it.without noah here everything is boring like seriously! How am I meant to get through the next few weeks without him? I'm going to go crazy without him! Eldon walks up to west with him "hey bro"eldon says "hmm what?"I say not focusing on eldon and more on what richelle and michelle and talking with amanda about as they all look at me "bro let's go" west says and they notice the girls staring at me.the girls look away quickly and i see richelle calling someone. Me,west and eldon all walk over to the girls "what are you talking about?"i ask "that's for Noah to tell you james"amanda says "what?"I ask confused "there's secrets that you don't know yet nobody does"richelle says "well clearly you three do!"i say and michelle turns to me "because it involves us"michelle says "fuck sake"i mutter "don't be angry at us"amanda says "sorry"I say before walking off. I wake down a set of stairs and out of the school "bro where are you going?"eldon asks "Noah's house"i say getting in my car,richelle,amanda and michelle get into my car. I drive to his house,i walk in and i see him laying down on the sofa with piper watching her favourite movie. "Oh hey baby"noah says standing up "so we are keeping secrets now?"i ask and he looks at the floor "we are dating we aren't meant to keep secrets"i shout "babe"noah mutters "no tell me the secret and then I'm leaving"i shout "miss kate and Lucien are my actual parents making me and the girls siblings"noah mutters "wasn't so hard now was it?"i say and piper stands up and walks out. I run after her. "Pipes!"i say and she stops and turns around. She hugs me "hey shhh it's okay"i whisper as I pick her up,i turn around to see noah walking with his dance bag,he looks at me and then gets into his car. He speeds off,i look at everyone else and they shrug their shoulders "are you all that dumb?he's going to the next step!"richelle says jumping in her car