It had been around an hour when the sobs died down.
Halfway to taehyung's breakdown jungkook felt pain in his legs by standing so much. As taehyung had nestled his head in jungkook's neck. Jungkook gently picked him up in koala style and as namjoon was close to the table he pulled out a chair for him. Jungkook murmured a quick and quite,'thank you.'
After an hour the sobs had died down. When the sobs died down jungkook looked down at taehyung just to see him in a deep slumber. He looked peaceful but he looked pale.
Not wanting to take any chance they took him to college nurse. She told he's just not taking care of his health and not sleeping properly that's why he's in a much needed slumber. She connected an IV tube to him. All sighed in relief but then someone broke down.
And if you guessed jimin, then you're right! Because he was feeling guilty. He knew about taehyung yet he felt he neglected his soulmate.
Whenever situation like this occurs he always makes sure taehyung is been eating and sleeping properly. He was like a second mom to taehyung. And like a mothers heart stops beating when her child is hurt was the same feeling jimin was experiencing.
They all took him out and consoled him. He wasn't sobbing like taehyung. He was sniffing and hiccuping. They all consoled him that it was not his fault but at the same time they understood him. Seeing someone grow up with you or in front of you and seeing them like this may take a toll on them. But that doesn't mean you should blame yourself.
Jungkook wanted to know something. So without hesitation he enquired,
"From when is this happening. Like his anxiety?"
To which jimin replied still hiccuping,
"Around 5th or 6th grade."
They all were shocked. This long?!
But again jungkook spoke,
"Was it always this severe?"
To which first jimin shook his head then replied,
"As the grades started getting higher and higher. His anxiety too got higher and higher."
To which they all nodded understandingly.
But again jungkook wanted to know something. So he again spoke,
"Is there some reason or it's just his mind tricks? Or is it because of... someone...?"
To which jimin replied timidly,
"It's his story to tell. Not mine. When he's ready he'll let you know."
Jungkook nodded understanding.
They all were unaware of a person listening to their conversation behind the closed door.
And that someone seemed to be so happy that jimin didn't tell them. His soulmate didn't out him. Oh how happy he was!
Taehyung knew jimin wants what's best for him. So, it was obvious for him to think that he'll tell them, that maybe they could help him. But he didn't! He waited for him himself to be mentally prepared and he was grateful to jimin.
He couldn't control the sudden overflow of love he felt for jimin and went outside. Rushing in jimin's arms not caring if he was in a relationship or no. He hugged his soulmate so tight that it almost squeezed the life out of jimin.
He was crying in happiness. But looking back at the events happened before they thought it was something sad.
But then taehyung laughed. He couldn't explain the joy he felt. Jimin didn't gave a fuck about anything after hearing his soulmate laugh.
They both laughed like lunatics.
After a while they both stopped and taehyung whispered. His voice filled with utmost sincerity and gratefulness.
"Thank you jimin."
Jimin didn't need to ask what for it was. It was a telepathy they shared. Jimin knew it was about his story. He smile at taehyung. Squeezing taehyung's hand which was on his thigh.
Jungkook was happy seeing the dazzling smile of taehyung back. He might have got a little jealous by the tight hug between them but he understands.
After that taehyung was again forced to rest and this time with jungkook by his side. For two reasons actually,
1. To keep an eye on him.
2. To keep him company if he doesn't feel like sleeping.
Taehyung was lying on the bed and jungkook beside him on the stool. Both were lost in their own thoughts.
Suddenly taehyung felt a hand gliding into his. He looked down at their now interwined hands and then at the owner of the other hand.
Jungkook wasn't looking at him but their hands. His thumb caressing taehyung's knuckles. It wasn't a sensual touch but a comforting one.
Jungkook then took a deep breath and started,
"You know when jimin said something but at the end he said you fighting your 'internal battle'. I ran like a madman. For a second I felt like one too. But the thought of you fighting it alone was making me more crazy.
You have us taehyung. The six of us. I know there are gonna be time when you wouldn't want to share it and want to be alone. That time we'll understand your silence."
Taehyung knew where this was going. Jungkook continued,
"I'm not saying right now. Take your time. But it's okay to be not okay."
While speaking jungkook was looking at their hands but when he said, 'Its okay to be not okay.' He looked at taehyung in the eye. Then continued,
"Everyone is imperfect. You have to understand that. You and I both lack somewhere but that doesn't mean we don't give our best in what we wanna do. We do. But the results are not in our hands taehyung. There are gonna times when you've worked your ass off but the results are not what you expected. But it doesn't makes you any less better. It doesn't mean you aren't enough. In a way we all are not enough to someone. May it be in understanding them, or caring for them or anything. But just because they expect so much from you doesn't mean you always have to live to their expectations taehyung. If you do what about your life? Your dreams? Yourself? We all have one small life taehyung. It finishes before it even starts. Don't live for them but for you. Do what you love. It's okay to be not enough sometimes. It's okay to be tired. Don't pressure yourself. There is someone out there who's wishing for you to be okay. For your happiness and health. And if you continue like this will they be happy seeing you achieving so much but your health declining? No. So take care. Please. If not for you then for me, our hyungs. Please?"
Taehyung was listening to jungkook attentively. He had tears going out but he didn't even realize. Jungkook removed them with his thumb. Offering a gentle smile to taehyung.
Taehyung lifted his body a bit and hugged jungkook. He was so grateful for the pep talk. He needed it so bad.
Jungkook whispered sweet nothings in his ears as he hugged him back and taehyung calmed down. And again went to a very needed slumber. But before going in the slumber he promised himself something. And that is,
"I'll live for myself."
