- 𝙻𝚞𝚌𝚔𝚢 𝚂𝚒𝚋𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 [dsmp story]

[44] too early..?

tsuki's pov

i was overthinking about what happened yesterday. i was currently in bed,, me and ash shared a room, but she was sleeping on a mattress.. i couldnt sleep so i decided to just stay up on my phone and scroll through tiktok for a bit. but something stuck on my mind.. it was what happened earlier.. the kiss with me and bill, i never really expected him to like me.. i dont think i like him back though,, i very clearly like toby. and... even if he doesnt like me back, even if ill be hurt.. ill always just see me and billzo as just regular best friends. i dont see him as anything more than that. i tried to stop thinking about it and try to get distracted, but nothing ever worked.. i wanted to text toby, but hes been acting strange ever since ash sent the message about me and billzo, and hes also probably asleep.. i decided to just watch some anime instead. then i got a text from billzo..

the bisexual man😍 [tsuki's nickname for bill]
hey, im really sorry about earlier.. i dont even know why i did it without permission. i do know that you like toby.. it was tommy that told me, i just got a bit upset as i had developed a crush on you a while ago. but i promise you ill get over this, just please forgive me. i really dont want anything between us, i promise i wont do the same thing ever again. i understand why you like toby and i dont have an issue with it anymore, again.. im really sorry for any trouble ive caused.

tsukibutgayer [tsuki's alt on twitter]
you dummy.. ive already forgiven you, and i do still consider you as one of my best friends. you may have caused me to overthink a bit.. but i guess this message made me feel a bit better. i still do love you as a friend, or maybe even more as a brother. its just i dont really see you as someone i can get into a relationship yk.. still love ya bill<3

i sent the message and sighed, i felt a bit better but i still felt like something was missing. i was still laying down on my bed unable to sleep.. ash was already asleep, so i couldnt talk to her about anything.. i just thought that everyone else was asleep by now. so i went to scroll through twitter for a bit,, retweeting fanart.. reading some weirdass tweets.. and just kinda chilling i guess. i got quickly bored of twitter, and went to go to twitch to see if anyone was streaming. i saw that jack was live, alex and george were there aswell.. i knew this stream was gonna be chaos as soon as i clicked on it, so.. i got my headphones and went to click on the stream. turns out they were doing a you laugh you lose! i had missed george a lot as he went back to his old house for a bit, but then he did come back.. some of our roommates have been going back and forth from their old places as it does sometimes get a bit crowded, but we've worked things out. i continued watching their stream but then got a notification.. a new tweet from tommy! toby and tommy were sharing a room, but obviously seperate beds. i saw that they were both awake.. it looked fun, but i decided to just ignore as i didnt know if toby was upset at me or not. i wouldnt really say we're in a relationship, just kind of a flirty [but platonic] friendship.