Roommates with Benefits

I missed you

Marquis's pov:

Next week is our gender reveal so we had to push the surprise back even more

It's crazy because I really want to show her this house but things keep coming up

Today I am taking her to the hill because we haven't been there in a while

And because I think we both just need a reset to stop worrying about all the problems we are soon to have

I'm worried about Sierra....ever since she told me that she felt like she was withdrawn I got scared

People can get violent and something can happen to her and the baby or me

I just want to keep her as safe as possible so we talked to her OBGYN about it

It is legal here.

The doctor said not to be worried and that it would go away

She did advise to keep her focused on the baby and as not stressed as possible

I figured it was easy but Sierra is easily stressed out

I could blink her at her for too long and she'll think I lost feelings

I Love her

I want her to be safe but I also know what she's going through

I have been without weed for a year once before and I know the toll it takes on your body

The first three months I suffered and wanted to die

So I started to put that energy in something else

I found a healthier addiction and I was able to complete my year of being sober

I then dropped out of college but my point is

You can do it ...you just have to have the mindset and the will and the want to get better

Think about all the good things that will come out of it

Think about all the problems that will disappear once you stop

That helped alot ...and so did the fact that my mom refused to speak to me

She was scared and she said for now it's weed but next year it could be crack

And she was right ...it took me forever to get off of it

Even to this day I still want some and I miss how it used to make me feel

I brought this plastic head for her to do its hair and makeup

And then I brought these fake hands so she can do nails

When I showed her she stopped clawing at her blunt box

She spent three hours and did 3 whole sets of nails

She then took them off gently and now she has press ons

So she doesn't have to spend money on getting them done

She cried after she realized how she was acting and she  locked herself in the room

I stayed by the door just in case she needed me but then I heard a thump and I opened it with the point of a knife

I walked in and she was sleeping...I checked her head and she wasn't bleeding

I picked her up and laid her on the bed

I haven't been getting sleep and neither has she, she'll wake up in a cold sweat and she'll start panicking

I've talked to her mom and she said Sierra has been 4 months without weed before

So im starting to think it's the withdrawal and the baby that's taking a toll on her body like this

I worry about her but I know this will pass

I kiss her cheek and then I get up to leave but she digs her nails in my arm to stop me

I gently take her hand off me and lay down with her and this is the first time in weeks that she actually wants me in the same room with her

Maybe she is starting to feel like herself again

Thank god ....

Sierra: I'm sorry

Marquis: I know baby...I'm just glad you're okay now ...I missed you

The end.