Phantom City. | Yang Jungwon x Reader

17: Plan of Action.

I couldn't focus. Nothing was in my head.

Well, nothing except for her.

Am I really feeling this way about her? Do I really like her that way? Do I love her more than how a friend loves a fellow friend?

"Hey... Jungwon.", I heard her say, waving her little hand in front of my eyes as I flinched. This isn't fine. I should act as normal as I could or this would tilt her the wrong way. It might tilt the others, too. "Yeah? What's up?", I asked as if I wasn't startled at her. "You weren't moving for five minutes until now... What's wrong?"

I don't even know how to respond to her. I started to fiddle the zipper of my backpack, still looking into her eyes as if I'll find an answer. Why does it all have to sum up to this? I still can't believe it. Y/N scratched the side of her forehead as she stared at me, probably thinking that I'm being weird for no reason. If only I could tell her the reason... Or maybe at least tell her vaguely, if I can really tell her vaguely because sometimes, I choose not to keep my mouth shut.

"Jungwon?", she called. I was still startled, eyes focused on nothing but her. My mind had nothing but the idea of the two of us, packing our bags together for the plan while the moonlight entered our shared room. Oh, god. I really am in love with her, then?

Y/N zips her backpack up loudly, causing me to wake up in this reality. She has no single idea about this. No one but Jay knows about my feelings for her if these feelings really are valid. What if this is just me being confused, right? I need to sleep more. "Oh, I'm sorry.", I mumbled as she rolled her eyes before crossing her arms at me, later making her way back to her own bed as I hugged my backpack closer to my chest. Do girls act like this when they develop feelings for someone? Do they feel confused that they couldn't even talk to the person they like?

If Jay just wasn't with Sunghoon at this moment, I would've asked him right now.

"... Hey, Y/N... I have something to tell you.", I blurted out as I almost slapped my mouth harshly, regretting the fact that I even had enough strength to talk right after she left. Y/N probably gave up trying to make me spit it all out. How is she going to react once she finds out about this? I hope Jay or Sunghoon doesn't tell her anything close to this. Not even the possibility of me liking Y/N... She'll freak out if she finds out.

Half of me wants to just brush this all off like how I do with the rest of my problems... but the other half that values our friendship more is a lot stronger.

I guess I'll just wait for the right time.

"Yes?", she turned around with a pair of squinting eyes, hands on her waist as her bottom lip twitched. I just know she's extremely pissed at whatever the hell I am doing. What am I even doing right now? I can't just stay quiet and then talk later like a creepy weirdo. I got up from the mattress of my bed, walking towards her with the backpack still being pushed against my chest. "... I'm feeling confused right now.", I said as a concerned gaze showed up from her own pair of beautiful eyes.

Did I just call her eyes beautiful? Jesus Christ. This isn't helping at all.

"Come here.", she breathes out, sitting on the side of her bed as she pats the empty space lightly. "What are you feeling confused about?", she rubs her left eye, tired from all of the activities we've done for today. I mean, Y/N and Sunghoon did another set of errands earlier while Jay and I were testing out the amplifiers. Tomorrow was the day of finalizing our plan and acting against this corrupted government.

So, why? Why did I have to realize all of this by now? I shouldn't have talked to Jay about this. I shouldn't have talked to anyone about this because this just strengthens my source of confusion... especially whenever she asks me what's wrong... Jungwon, get your shit together. This isn't a romantic comedy. We're literally in the middle of a crisis.