it's been a month since we've moved here. it's also been a month since i met my first love. i can't lie to myself, i know that she have feelings to Oliver. its kinda sad but it's okay, i understand it. and today is the day when i want to change it.
today is saturday, we don't have any class. i decided to meet up with zeezee at a cafe that we often go.
hey zeezee, u free?
ohh, hey uhm, yeah, why?
can we meet up?
sure, usual place?
yes. see ya there :)
wokayy :)
-at cafe-
i arrived first, i order my drink and wait for her. she's not late. after 5 minute i wait, she came.
"heyyy ryan!!" she said happily. i greet her back. she ordered her drink.
we talked about random things. until i feel like this is the right time. and yeah it's time for me to speak about it.
"i want to say something"
zeezee's POV
I know he have something important to say. i really think he want to confess properly and ask me to be his girlfriend. but..
"what is it?" i asked him.
"i know u like Oliver. i know." he said and i could see a tear flowing down his cheeks. i can't help but feel sorry for him.
"i-" i was about to say sorry.
"it's okay, it's okay.. i just want to be someone special too" he said and pulled out a box from his pocket.
i thought this gonna be like a basic drama when the box has rings and he want me to be his. how shameless i am?
"open it" he said.
i opened it and i saw 2 bracelets. a matching bracelets.
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he took the white one and grabbed my hand. he put the bracelet on my hand. he take the black one. and give me his hand.
"at least i wanna be your best friend" he said in a lot of tears. his cheeks starts to get reddened because of his sadness. i know how hard it feels to cover our feeling for someone to make them happier.
i went to seat beside him and hug him tightly. i could feel my shoulder get wet by his tears. he cry a lot. i never saw him crying like this. he is so precious.
"i love u so much and i want u to know that forever. i love you. i love you so much. i never met someone as perfect as you are. i never met someone that can make my heart beating so much. thank you for teach me what love is. i love you" he said in tears. he loves me so much. i don't know why but i cry too. he keep hugging me tightly.
"i'm sorry for not having the same feeling like yours" i said, crying too. he let go of the hug and wipes my tears.
"it's okay but please treat me as your best friend. i will always be here for you until my last breath" he said and crying too. HOW CAN I STOP CRYING IF HE DON'T?!
I wipe his tears. "let's enjoy our first day as a best friend" he said and give me his hand as a sign that i don't put the bracelet for him yet. i chuckled. after i put it, he hugged me. the warmest hug i ever had.
we really enjoy our day. today is one of the most happiest day i ever had. we just laughing and smiling all day. after a really tiring day.. its 9pm right now.
he sent me back home. in front of my house..
"thank you" he said with a cute smile. but his eyes starts to get glassy.
"don't cry or either i smack ur head. " i said and pretend to smack his head. he chuckled while wipe a tear on his cheek.
we bid our goodbye.
i entered the house. its smell really good. i already had dinner with ryan but i feel hungry after i smell this.
"what with this smell?"i said.
"ohh you're back zeezee" taehyun said.
"i made japchae, wanna eat together?" he asked.
i'm actually full but after i heard the word japchae, i don't care. i want to eat.
Ryan's POV
what a good day. with my best friend.
love is not a basic word. love explain you everything. happy, sad, scared and everything. i'm happy that she being my first love. i am sad that i need to let her go for her goodness sake. and i'm scared if oli can't take care of her well. she's everything to me.
i want her to know that without her, i am nothing. i was a person that don't care about love. i don't even know what is love. thanks to her i guess. she changed me a lot. from a cold hearted guy to the most happiest guy that ever existed in this world. she makes me feel butterfly.
i don't know how to explain. u guys must have felt love too, right?
love is too heavy.
i wish i can call her mine. but no.. i trust that God have the better plans for me. i trust you God. please give me a better future than my plans.
love you always, zeezee. goodnight. i change my wallpaper phone, from her to a black picture back.
