Felix's POV
i think this is the time that i need to tell her about my feeling.
"any story?" she asked and look at right into my soul. her eyes always shining. my heart never stop beating fastly whenever i saw her.
"i don't know if i should tell you this but, it would be a lie if i being your friend for 9 years and i never fall for someone as cool as you. " i said and she have the most confused look i ever see on her face since we've been friend.
"i like you" i confessed.
"but i-" i cut her.
"i know you love oli, i've been like you since we're in 7th grade. but after you been couple with late Samuel, i realized that i just like you so much. not love. because i don't feel mad about you love someone else, instead of it i feel happy for you" i said in one breath.
"Samuel passed away for 3 years already. i am the one who always being with you for those 3 years straight. i still don't realize that i actually starts to love you. " i said and just looking down at my feet.
"but how?" she asked.
"BECAUSE I STARTS TO GET MAD WHEN I KNOW YOU LOVE OLIVER. I AM REALLY MAD. I AM MAD OF MYSELF BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE COURAGE TO TELL YOU ABOUT MY FEELING." i said and burst into tears.
she was about to hug me but i pushed her away slowly.
"YOU SHOULD JUST TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME" she suddenly said loudly and get up from her seat still looking at me. i got up too.
"IT'S TOO LATE ZEEZEE, IT'S TOO LATE BECAUSE I STARTS TO HAVE COURAGE WHEN I ALREADY KNOW THAT YOU FALL FOR OLIVER." i said again. both of us starts to raise our voice.
"BUT I USED-" i cut her again.
"I KNOW THIS WOULD HAPPEN, I KNOW THIS WOULD HAPPEN THAT YOU AND ME WILL GET INTO FIGHT BECAUSE OF THIS. THAT'S WHY I DON'T TELL YOU ABOUT IT BECAUSE I LOVE YOU AND I DON'T WANT OUR FRIENDSHIP RUINED BECAUSE OF ME LOVING YOU.I RATHER BE IN ONE SIDED LOVE RATHER THAN I LOST YOU." I said and sigh as i am really satisfied to tell her about this.
"but i used to love you too" she said slowly.
WHAT? ALL THIS TIME BEFORE OLIVER MOVED HERE, SHE LOVE ME?
she was about to walk away to get out from the room, i hold her hand. turning her around and kissed her on the lips.
zeezee's POV
HE KISSED ME. LEE FELIX FUCKING KISS ME. NOT GONNA LIE, I WAS SHOCKED.
he pulled away from the kiss and look at me right into my eyes. i look away from his gaze. i am so embarrassed to even look at him.
"i am so sorry for that, but i knew that i will never have that again after this. that's why i decide to do it without your permission. i know you will mad at me. do, mad at me, hit me or do anything you want which can calm your anger" he said while standing upright in front of me.
i am seriously not mad after all. it's okay. but i can't be his girlfriend because i'm waiting for Oliver now. i am truly fall for Oliver.
i hugged him.
he hugged me back tightly. i felt like between us there is no more secret. i felt so close to him right now.
"this hug feel so good, let's stay like this for a while" he said calmly in that warm hug.
after we both feel better, i decided to back to my house.
_at my house_
felix text me.
you arrived?
yeah, will go quick shower and sleep.
good, me too.
good night zeezee, i am so sorry for whatever happened today.
let's be twin forever :)
i smiled to his texts, this is why i like him. very cute and soft spoken.
aww, yeahhh.
goodnight! sweet dream! <3
you too my dear :3
after i done shower and changing my clothes to my pajamas. what a tiring day. i laid on my bed, looking at the ceiling. i touched my lips using my finger. it's been a long time since i got a kiss on the lips. last one i got is right before Samuel died. not realize i starts to crying. i miss him. if i not clumsy when i crossed the street, he won't die, right? i still feel guilty for his death even his parents already forgave me and they never blame me for his death.
Samuel, wait for me, okay?
