Aouad Girls X Fem Reader Oneshot

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' nam-ra x fem reader '

Your pov:

What did I do wrong?....did I did something that made her act this way?....maybe she didn't really want me?....and fell out of love?....does she even thought of what I'm felling now.?...does she even know I'm hurting just thinking about her Breaking up with me?...it hurts just repeating her words saying that it be better if we both break up....I didn't even know what I did....its painful....the day I said I wanted to move out...she started to act weird.... She would call me by names that is just hurtful to me....she was different....I didn't know what angered her....it just that....it's unfair...is this really the end?, Or how our story ends?......those thoughts were dwelling inside my head as I dash towards her apartment building....

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I am currently running towards her apartment as I sweated.... turning to every curve to this god damn place...it feels like it's so far to my reach....my breathing became heavier to every step I took and my lungs hurt....I finally reached her front door as I panted...."nam-ra!?....hey open the door!?" I shouted as I knocked on the door repeatedly......I heard some movements and shuffling from the inside and I know she was in there.....she didn't respond nor opened the god damn door..."hey, what's wrong....can you open it please" I pleaded as I pressed my forehead to the wooden dark door...still breathing heavily...."what did I do to make you act this way?.....baby please I just want to talk" I pleaded again as my eyes began to burn...and it stings.....I scoffed as I saw her shadow sipping through the small gap on the door....she was listening....I turned my back to the door as I slide down and sat on the floor as my back was leaning to the wooden door that was the only thing that sperate's from seeing my loves eyes and the both of us...."just listen....if you don't want to talk to me this way...then just listen....the day I told you I was moving....it started there right....if you dont Want me to move away from this shit place....cause I know how much you hate this place....you couldn't just said you want to come with me...." I took a deep breath as I cursed under my breath....I did my best to not break down in here....even though there is no single soul insight....I still feel that if I cry ...I'm going to get weak...."just please.....I don't even know what to do without you....why would you want to do this....all those times with eachother...the hardship that we both had gone through....but this is how it ends....I'm really sorry if I can't fulfill what you want from a person....but hon I'll say this...I tried my best to be enough for you....I did my best....but I guess you felt out of love....." I paused as buried my face to my hands.... didn't quite know what to say next...." I respect your decision...if you dont want me anymore....and you want someone better than me....then I would be happy to see you being happy with someone not me....I just........I just want to see you and to say a proper goodbye...." I stood up and stared at the door.... pressing my body on it....as if I would push harder it would just disappear....I just wanna see her....just for the last time.....I could....I want to taste those lips of hers for the last time before I go and leave her be.....

"I'm sorry....if I couldn't be enough....I want you and I want you to want me back ...." I mumbled through the door as I closed my eyes and pressed my body harder on it....I couldn't say anything anymore....as I can't think on what to say to her.....as If my words was taken away from me....my ears perked up once I heard a soft click.... letting me know that It wasn't lock....she came insight as the door slightly open....I saw her eyes....it was puffy from crying....this time I cried....I wanted to hug her so badly but I just blurted it out...."please take me back...I promise I'll treat you like my Queen....I will spoil you ..... please" I mumbled....she looked panic as she tightened her grip on the door nob..."I-i..." She stuttered as I was about to embrace her...."I'm sorry!" Then she shut the god damn door again....I sigh as I wipe my tears away ...."well.... at least I saw your eyes for the last time....take care.." I turned my back to the door as I make my way towards the elevator....but I was stopped as my feet didn't cooperate with me...I looked through my shoulder and to door....as I turned back around...."I love you, nammy..." That was her nickname...she loved it when I call her that so I said it before I turned my back to the door and completely make my way away from her.....

Nam-ra's pov:

I panicked once her footsteps faded but it stopped as she said something that made me cry more harder as I clutch my chest where my heart was located ....."I love you, nammy" she said...I was so confused that time she said she wanted to move out...I thought she was leaving me for good so I acted that way... calling her names that I know that hurts her....and this is my first break up so it hurts so much...to think that the person you were deeply in loved was now not with you anymore....I panicked that time so I thought... breaking up with her would be the best Choice I could think of...but no....it is hurtful....I just cried that night and didn't eat properly these past few days...It had been 2 months now since I last heard her voice....I decided that today I'm gonna search for her....and I Wanna say that I'm sorry to her......I Want her back more than anything....I miss her so much...I grabbed my coat in the coat rack and grabbed my keys too inside the bowl on my isle....I opened the door once I entered the elevator and I suddenly received a call....I answered and on-jo's voice suddenly said with a Happy tune..."Yahh, nam-ra...let's hang out in a club tonight...I know girls you can hit on here....yes?"...I sigh and waited for my stop....I then began..."no on-jo, I can't Im busy right now" I could hear her sigh as she said...."are you still all over y/n?" I froze..I don't want to answer that but knowing my Bestfriend...she just don't want to let it slide for a slightest...."I-i....yes.... could you please do me a favor.." I looked at the numbers above the steel door as I fidget with my keys...."what is it then....I'll do it right away..." The voice of my other friends was clearly having fun in the background..."thank you...uhm...do you perhaps know where y/n's location is?" I asked....she mumbled a 'wait hold on' and I heard them on the background having a low conversation....

"Oh yes .... cheong-san said her new apartment is in this location.." she gave me the location on y/n's new apartment she had moved in and I thanked my Bestfriend....I was now on my car after I dash out the building I was in and went straight to the apartment building they told me where she was......I  rushed inside after I had ask some of the people down the lobby if ever they had seen this certain female....and thankfully they did....I dash along corridors to corridors..... hoping to bump into her....and god knows what I want and let the fate did it....I bump into someone and I apologized....I was about to continue what I was doing when I heard her voice...."nam-ra?" Confused and puzzled was all written on her face....she backed away and it hurt me to see her behave like this.....

Your pov:

I backed away from her once I had saw her....tears immediately started to show up on her eyes as some of it dare to come out and slowly slide down her cheeks....."y/n pleas-" I cut her off as I turned my back at her.... trying to ignore her pleading....after all these days she dared to show her face to me ...like she didn't shattered my heart into pieces....I felt a hand grabbed my wrist which caused me to stop from walking...."what do you want..." I rudely ask...she sobbed and I ignored it hurtfully.....I can't bare seeing her cry....but I have to endure and stop myself from wrapping my arms around her and giving her a tight embrace...."I'm sorry ....I shouldn't did that...I shouldn't did what I thought would be great for the both of us.....I was too scared you might leave me when the day you said you wanted to move out....I'm really sorry..." She said as she cried....and her grip to my wrist tightened....I scoffed and snatch my arm back...."I can't believe you....you changed.....when were you when I cried myself to sleep....and the loneliness swallowed me.....now your fucking sorry....you dare even show your face to me and say sorry....I had suffered enough...now tell me....why are you sorry about....that you had hurt me....that's bullshit.." I said as she just cried....I turned to her and looked at her while she just broke down...."I-i.." she tried to speak but none came out of her mouth..."that's what I thought..." I then turned around and walk away.... leaving her there.... crying....I entered my home as I closed it behind me.... plopping myself to the cushion of my sofa....

Why didn't I tell her to leave me be? .... because deep down in me....I still hope she wouldn't stop from it and keep on doing her best to get me back to her arms....I want her too but I still don't trust her....I slept as her crystal and teary eyes was the only image that I could think about..."I'm sorry too"..

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Written: 3/31/22