I Do (One Direction Fanfiction ) #2

Please, I need you

A/N
*italics=flashback
* normal=present day

Niall's P.O.V
Ever since Duncan was born I had lived in this state of paranoia that onr day Belle would cease to be. That she would one day leave me due to a tiny defect in her heart that happened the day she was born. Every night I would sleep with my hand resting on her back or on her chest needing to feel her heartbeat between my fingers, command it too keep beating for as long as we lived. As the months passed my paranoia had lessened but one phone call had it all rushing back and me tumbling into a pit of memories.....

I stood my hands moving up and down to bring life back into the one I loved. I was a turbulence of emotions the fourfront being fear and desperation. I was not going to come this far to loose the one I loved after enduring so much during the course of my relationship. The heart monitor was silent as I pumped up and down trying to restart Belle's heart.

"Move" Someone nudged my hands aside and ripped opened Belle's hospital gown exposing her chest. There was a flurry of activity as doctors and nurses flooded into the room.

"Sir, you have to leave" One Doctor said trying to catch my eye but my gaze was firmly fixed on Belle. I watched as they put an oxygen pump thing into her mouth. Everything was a blur and all I saw clearly was her face

"Sir" A nurse tried to grab me but I shook her off. Rage suddenly overcame me. Rage at the doctors, rage at god for letting this happen and rage at myself that I couldn't save Belle. I had all the money in the world yet I couldnt save her life.

"I'm not letting you go Belle" I reached out for her hand to try and anchor myself "Don't you dare die!" I felt hands grabbing me and then I was violently pulled away from Belle, my heart being shredded into a thousand pieces....

I still clutched the phone in a state of shock. The present and the past were blurring making it hard to think let alone move or be productive. I heard crying in the distance and looked down to see Duncan on my lap, one year old Duncan not newborn Duncan. That realization caused me to snap into motion; I grabbed a bottle and a few other necessary items for Duncan while throwing on his and mine coat. Car keys in hand I sprinted for the car unlocking it before quickly buckling Duncan in. I jumped into the drivers seat and tried to insert the key. My hands were shaking that badly that I had to brace myself on the steering wheel for a second. Duncan was crying in the background but all I could focus on was the fear inside me. I needed Belle, she was my heart and my soul without either I.... A warm hand clapped me on the shoulder pulling me firmly back into reality. I looked to see Liam and Perrie standing at my open car door with worried looks on there faces. Without a word Perrie hopped in the back with Duncan and started soothing him.

"Scooch" Liam said taking the keys from my hand. I moved out of the drivers seat and into the passenger as Liam moved into my vacated seat. With a flick of his wrist the car started.

"Any news?" Asked Perrie echoing the same question she had asked more than a year ago....

"Any news?" Perrie's hoarse voice broke the errie silence in the hospital waiting room. I had long ago ordered them to leave me alone and let me succumb to the isolation and numbness I now felt.

"We don't know Pez" Zayn answered pulling her closer as tears poured down her cheeks. I envied that Zayn could pull Perrie into his arms while my beloved was stretched out on a cold operating table trying to hold on to life.

"Mr Horan?" A doctor emurged from the operating room blood staining his gloves.

"Niall" Liam half shouted trying to gain my attention "What hospital?"