I Do (One Direction Fanfiction ) #2

Spiraling Down

Louis P.O.V

I knocked again at Harry's door.

Desperate to see him.

Desperate to see her.

I knew I should have never had opened my big mouth or none of this would have happened. I had destroyed the bands reputation, Liam and Natasha's confidence all in one go. I knew how fragile Tash really was under the tough exterior and the walls she erected around herself ever since she was 17.

I raised my fist to knock again and nearly punched Harry in the face.I blinked and looked at Harry again. His eyes were bloodshot and lined with dark circles,I had never seen so many lines in his face as if he had aged years in just the few short days. The person standing in front of me was not the one I had met all those years ago on X Factor, he didn't even have a shrewd of that person

"You look awful"

"No shit, I've been up with Natasha and trying to sort the mess you and Liam left behind before you disappeared off the face of the earth" Harry ran his hand through his curls, a sign he was frustrated.

"I'm sorry Hazza" I threw his nickname in there to soften him up. I had missed him, we were best friends an this keeping secrets was putting a strain on our relationship

"Just get up there, she's in real bad shape" He moved out of the way and I bounded up the stairs in a frantic pace, something felt wrong and I steeled myself for what I would find inside. I opened the door, my attention immediately turned towards the destraught Brunette clutching a razor, her white wrist exposed

"Natasha! No" I ran towards her

Tash P.O.V

My body jerked at the sound of his voice.

The voice that had once said he would alway save me, he would be my superman. I dropped the razor and turned towards him, fresh tears running down my face

"Louis?" My voice cracked, full of emotion and disbelief.

"It's me Tash, I'm here for you. Forever and Always remember?"

" You weren't there"

"Tash I'm so sorry"

"No, you don't get to apologise, not then and not now" He moved closer to me as if he was gauging my reaction before he did a drastic move. "Louis-" I warned bit it was too late, he scooped me up in a hug

"I'm sorry, so sorry Natasha. Please" he stroked my hair and mourned to be until I felt my body relax and the sobs subsided.

" I was so close again, five years of resisting and I was that close to ending it all"

"Tash, I think you might need help"

" What do you mean?" I knew what he meant but I wanted him to say it out loud.

" Professional help, like a therapist" I stiffened as his arms tightened around me

" Why so they can tell me I'm crazy and medicate me? No! How dare you even suggest that!" I was emotionally unstable and he had suggested that? I slapped him hard and withdrew to the corner rocking

"Natasha please calm down" Louis went to touch me again and U broke

"HARRY! GET HIM AWAY! HAROLD!" I screamed over and over again like it was a mantra. Harry came bursting into the room took one look and hauled Louis out by his shirt

" I thought you were going to help her, balance her! But no Louis pushes, just like he always does" I could hear Harry and Louis fighting but I didn't care. I had gone numb again, all my emotions being spent. I liked this feeling, the total numbness, it allowed me for a brief time to sleep, to enter the darkness that somehow made everything better. I closed my eyes slumping to the floor, giving in to my temporary peace.